I am cool

[mandeeiskool]

I am so stressed out. The holidays make me this way. But Im also so happy. I dont know what it is. I dont know if its Jason, if its my friends, if its just me, if its my life. I am just happy. Ive been hurt alot, I was used for the longest time. I was someones toy, and I got played. Ive given my heart away to people who only broke it. Ive had lots of friends over the years, most of them just temporary. Now it seems like everything is different. I have the best boyfriend, which is not an exaggeration. My friends are all people who go to my church. I dont cuss, drink, have sex or anything like that anymore. I find happiness in the little things, like Jason taking care of my cut on my arm from work. I find happiness in just going to church and being able to praise God openly. I used to think that my last relationship was the best thing that would ever happen to me..and now I look back and compared to my new relationship and my life now, I realize that was all crap. I allowed myself to be taken advantage of. My friends make me happy, they make me smile and they all are amazing. Of course I have things in my life that arent great, like my job and the fact that I am always broke. But I know that it will all change when its meant to. I didnt know life could be this good. Jason and I never argue. We have a great relationship, with God as the base, which keeps us strong. We do all these fun things together. We went to Medeviel Times and to see The Chronicles of Narnia. We went to Lifeway the other day to look for Devotional books for couples so we could do that together. We have a happy & fun relationship. The thought of him and how happy he makes me, makes me smile and blush here at work. I am retarded I know but I am so happy.

So I just want to say Thank You to all my friends, who have made me so happy lately. You have all changed me in a special way. I cant imagine being this happy if my new friends werent in my life.

I Love You Danielle, Jason, Barry, Rhoda, Kristen, Jimmy, Aaron, Yvonne, Brian and everyone at Edgemere Church of God!!