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my life consists of work & school
i have nothing anymore. my friends are gone. my family is gone. i have nothing! why? cuz ever since ive had a job, all i do is work, work && FUKING WORK! my weekends? HA ! i dont have weekends anymore. its hard to keep in touch with ppl when all i do is work & go to school & try to keep my grades up. i dont even get to see all of the people i would love to see at school. i want my old life back.. i was having so much fun. now, its like yeah wow what a great life i have. i have nothing. no one i can go to with anything. no one i can talk to about my happiness. why? because they dont care, obviously they have bigger better things to do & other better friends then me. sorry guys, if it was up to me, i wouldnt have a job. i would be hanging out with my friends on the weekends, having as much fun as i could. i miss everyone. i miss my best friends. i miss my family. i miss my old life. im really sorry everyone.. ive been really bitchy lately, but thats cuz of all of this. idk what to do. its just been building up inside me this past week, & im just letting it go right now. because i have no one i can go to. i miss ashley & michaela & kristina & stefanie & heather & jen & blaire & whitney & everyone else! we were all such good friends, i was soo close with all of them, i get a job & it all goes downhill from there. i havent talked to my older brother in soo long bcuz i dont have time to call him. i havent talked to chris in so long because i dont have time to call him. im the worst person. i know that. i try my hardest to be there for everyone & try to keep in touch, but its just really hard, working all the time, not gettin home till late all the time, waking up early the next day. & when i do get time at home i sleep because i barely ever get any of it. this sucks. my mom & i were talking yesterday, she feels like shes loosing me, she doesnt even know what goes on with me anymore, she barely ever gets to see me. & my dad, the same goes with him. i see him on the weekends if im lucky! idk what to do. i just needed to get this out so everyone can see how i feel & whats been going on with me lately..i just needa get away from everything & take a break..
but i think the only person i do have is shane.. everythings going really good for me & him, we are official. im not keeping my hopes up tho, cuz everytime i do they come crashing down.
gotta go clean my room & do laundry since i havent been home, im way behind on it.
i have nothing anymore. my friends are gone. my family is gone. i have nothing! why? cuz ever since ive had a job, all i do is work, work && FUKING WORK! my weekends? HA ! i dont have weekends anymore. its hard to keep in touch with ppl when all i do is work & go to school & try to keep my grades up. i dont even get to see all of the people i would love to see at school. i want my old life back.. i was having so much fun. now, its like yeah wow what a great life i have. i have nothing. no one i can go to with anything. no one i can talk to about my happiness. why? because they dont care, obviously they have bigger better things to do & other better friends then me. sorry guys, if it was up to me, i wouldnt have a job. i would be hanging out with my friends on the weekends, having as much fun as i could. i miss everyone. i miss my best friends. i miss my family. i miss my old life. im really sorry everyone.. ive been really bitchy lately, but thats cuz of all of this. idk what to do. its just been building up inside me this past week, & im just letting it go right now. because i have no one i can go to. i miss ashley & michaela & kristina & stefanie & heather & jen & blaire & whitney & everyone else! we were all such good friends, i was soo close with all of them, i get a job & it all goes downhill from there. i havent talked to my older brother in soo long bcuz i dont have time to call him. i havent talked to chris in so long because i dont have time to call him. im the worst person. i know that. i try my hardest to be there for everyone & try to keep in touch, but its just really hard, working all the time, not gettin home till late all the time, waking up early the next day. & when i do get time at home i sleep because i barely ever get any of it. this sucks. my mom & i were talking yesterday, she feels like shes loosing me, she doesnt even know what goes on with me anymore, she barely ever gets to see me. & my dad, the same goes with him. i see him on the weekends if im lucky! idk what to do. i just needed to get this out so everyone can see how i feel & whats been going on with me lately..i just needa get away from everything & take a break..
but i think the only person i do have is shane.. everythings going really good for me & him, we are official. im not keeping my hopes up tho, cuz everytime i do they come crashing down.
gotta go clean my room & do laundry since i havent been home, im way behind on it.