what to say?
Testing testing.... Can everyone hear me? You in the back can you hear me alright? Good!
Let's see right now I hear A Perfect Circle playing, the tv saying something, my phone making noises because it's going dead. I'm surrounded by noise when I need peace and silence....
Things have been interesting lately. I've Moved out! Yea, No shit. I've been at my new apartment for about a month. It's pretty sweet, but also pretty different at the same time. I mean I've lived with the same people for 21 years and now all of a sudden I'm a visitor at my parent's house.
There is absolutely too much bull shit we surround ourselves with. It feels as though the only thing that makes us humans feel alive is drama. Wether it be war, disease, pestilence, or just personal stuff. We need to step back and concentrate on number one. Most people would say that's selfish, but really think about it. Anytime you commit yourself to someone or something eventually you're going to be disapointed. There's no stopping it. Even if you have low expectations. It's going to happen.
Work is growing more and more tedious. I need to escape. There is a glimmer of hope on the horizon. There's a slight chance I could be moving to Tuscaloosa within the next 6 months (Maybe). Hopefully. I would be the general manager of my own store. I don't know anyother 21 year old who is a GM of a million plus dollar store. Kind of strange to realize that all my friends my age are off at school partying and somehow I've gone down to being a slave to the system. Oh well, slaves are paid pretty well now a days.
I live in apartment 207 at fieldcrest. you must come visit. I need company besides the little frog that lives outside my door. Every night he is waiting for me by my door. My only true companion as of late. It'll be sad if he goes away.
I have a refrigerator full of beer and condiments. Kinda sad. It reminds me of fight club when all he has in his refrigerator is condiments, and he said there's nothing more depressing than an refrigerator full of condiments.
Even though I started this entry not knowing where to go or what to say I just realized how much mindless rambling I just typed out. Don't hate me. There's already enough people who do. In a blink of an eye you can turn from the one who you love, the one who you depend on, and count on. To an acquantance. To a co-worker. to another random face in the crowd. Life is funny that way. People come and go constantly in and out of your life and all you have to remind yourself of them are some dusty old pictures and a vacant memory in your head. Friends from 5th grade. Friends I met when all my other friends went off to college. And friends who don't really stack up to friends at all. It makes me wonder what my life would be like if I went off to college. I would never have known and did so much. I'm thankful that I stayed here for school, but also curious to see what it would have been like to change my entire life in one short decision.
I know nothing I just wrote really applies to anyone who reads this. It's more of just a way I wanted to throw thoughts on the screen. Do not worry though. Even though this post was a little depressing or gloomy I'm actually just fine. I'm alive, I have my health, I have a place to live. Nothing else needed. Except some company. Or maybe just a hello. So I say now hello to anyone who still cares enough to still be reading this. You are really true friends. And I love you all more than you know.
Always and forever,
Jud.
Let's see right now I hear A Perfect Circle playing, the tv saying something, my phone making noises because it's going dead. I'm surrounded by noise when I need peace and silence....
Things have been interesting lately. I've Moved out! Yea, No shit. I've been at my new apartment for about a month. It's pretty sweet, but also pretty different at the same time. I mean I've lived with the same people for 21 years and now all of a sudden I'm a visitor at my parent's house.
There is absolutely too much bull shit we surround ourselves with. It feels as though the only thing that makes us humans feel alive is drama. Wether it be war, disease, pestilence, or just personal stuff. We need to step back and concentrate on number one. Most people would say that's selfish, but really think about it. Anytime you commit yourself to someone or something eventually you're going to be disapointed. There's no stopping it. Even if you have low expectations. It's going to happen.
Work is growing more and more tedious. I need to escape. There is a glimmer of hope on the horizon. There's a slight chance I could be moving to Tuscaloosa within the next 6 months (Maybe). Hopefully. I would be the general manager of my own store. I don't know anyother 21 year old who is a GM of a million plus dollar store. Kind of strange to realize that all my friends my age are off at school partying and somehow I've gone down to being a slave to the system. Oh well, slaves are paid pretty well now a days.
I live in apartment 207 at fieldcrest. you must come visit. I need company besides the little frog that lives outside my door. Every night he is waiting for me by my door. My only true companion as of late. It'll be sad if he goes away.
I have a refrigerator full of beer and condiments. Kinda sad. It reminds me of fight club when all he has in his refrigerator is condiments, and he said there's nothing more depressing than an refrigerator full of condiments.
Even though I started this entry not knowing where to go or what to say I just realized how much mindless rambling I just typed out. Don't hate me. There's already enough people who do. In a blink of an eye you can turn from the one who you love, the one who you depend on, and count on. To an acquantance. To a co-worker. to another random face in the crowd. Life is funny that way. People come and go constantly in and out of your life and all you have to remind yourself of them are some dusty old pictures and a vacant memory in your head. Friends from 5th grade. Friends I met when all my other friends went off to college. And friends who don't really stack up to friends at all. It makes me wonder what my life would be like if I went off to college. I would never have known and did so much. I'm thankful that I stayed here for school, but also curious to see what it would have been like to change my entire life in one short decision.
I know nothing I just wrote really applies to anyone who reads this. It's more of just a way I wanted to throw thoughts on the screen. Do not worry though. Even though this post was a little depressing or gloomy I'm actually just fine. I'm alive, I have my health, I have a place to live. Nothing else needed. Except some company. Or maybe just a hello. So I say now hello to anyone who still cares enough to still be reading this. You are really true friends. And I love you all more than you know.
Always and forever,
Jud.