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Holy Shit.
I will try to make a post about what happened later. but this is just about HOLY SHIT.
Damian Mckinley, you are a cheating lying scum bag who does'nt deserve anthing other than to live a painful pathetic life where you live long but suffer through most of it.
the man I was talking about how I loved so much.. I wish I never met him.. I feel in love with a narcissistic sociopath. and Im not exaggerating.
I made the biggest mistake of my life.
I hate this man... and the rest of the world should too.
I feel sick to my stomach. I feel week. I know this feeling but god... this one is worse.
This isn't just about one time.. its about being fooled for a whole year. Not only do I feel stupid I dont know if I can date men again. I dont want him to have the satisification of knowing he hurt me so much. But i want him to lose his penis. I dont want to have all these negative feelings, but the only thing that gives me pleasure right now is thinking of bad things that can happen to him. I am not a violent person and I dont like having this energy.
Which is why I will cut him out completly but fuck i can't believe this happened to me... I never thought... I have learend so much. but its going to be hard to recover form this. emotionally.
i can feel my emotinal amour being build soooo damn thick right now. like I know what my new atttitude will look like. its not gonna be pretty. how am i going to attract a life partner like this. this is seriously the worst human i have ever met.
I should have never taken the job at vistek. it didnt lead to anything good. WOW. i fucked up bad. I guess I get to join the rest of the many humans who have years in their past they would rather forget. I didn't really have those. Even the pain of my previous relationships i somehow romatntasized and had postivie memories from.
This i just want to press the delete button over entirely.