Arghhghh
So I'm at a hostel in Galway. I ask myself. Why do I do this to myself over over over again. I thought this was different. I was wrong. This is the worst mess I have been in. I attached myself to someone who attaches himself to whatever the fuck is avilae so he doesn't feel alone.
Why am I angry. Cause he lead me on and made me think I was more than just a vagina. But I'm just a vagina. I know all my friends were right. And I often don't listen to them because they were wrong about the only fucking person who ever loved me. So I like to think the will be wrong about others.
I can't believe I considered better ways I suck dick for a man that viewed me as a vagina.
The monster is out in full rage. The problem is how can I hurt someone who doesn't care for me.
Well. We will see.
I wonder how I would feel alone.
Although he told me to go with him. Gosddddddd I'm so angry.
Well. I'm looking forward to being home. And doing mean things. If I can