letting go....

Jul 22, 2006 01:40

Do you ever just wonder if you should let go? I have been holding on to something.....
something that makes my heart go pitter-patter....silly really especially when I know nothing can come from it. My heart belongs to someone that doesn't know and honestly I don't know if I could tell them. Why am I so scared?

I was asked to be my friends mistress of ceremony today....really made me happy. Then it hits me....I am single why do I always have to be the single one of the friends.....why can't i just find Mr. Right....or my Mr. Right like me back? Ah tis life.....
anyways me and my friend talked today about wills and how some people don't have them...and I am one of those people. If something were to happen to me tomorrow.....would people do what I wanted or what they think is best.....it made me realize I need to start thinking like an adult and set something up.

I am not trying to be morbid or whatever....the true hard reality is we never know what tomorrow holds.....

So....I am thinking what do I want to say....do....so this is one thing that no matter what I would like done......the song I can only imagine by mercy me.....my dear friend Steve gave more meaning to that song than anyone ever could....I hear that song and I get flashbacks....of him in our office playing it on his guitar....that is the song that I just hear....I love it....thank you steve smith....you truly inspire me!

I have been emotional today I have no idea why.....well a combination of things I am sure....but tis part of life......

Well I am sitting here waiting up for a camper to come back he was rushed to the hospital from what appeared to be ant bites.....for those of you who don't have to deal with FIRE ANTS....consider yourself oh so lucky! They are truly the devil! They are on all the floors of my building all 12 storys....honestly I am surprised they don't die....I would prolly by the 4th floor if I was that small on that journey....I wonder how long it takes them to go up?

Anyways update....just got a phone call....not reactions from an ant bite but from a food allergy....THANK GOODNESS....really didn't need that to deal with.....

Thanks for the love Dani and katie.....

And I am sorry for the glummy updates....I wish I were happier....and had something exciting to update....but I think I might be like this for awhile.....UNFORTUNETLY

Y'all are amazing.....and I love you all!!
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