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Hey I hope everyone is doing well.....if you are looking for a more upbeat entry....this is not as debbie downer as the last but still not happy....
Things have not gotten better for me....today my cat who I had for 17 years....yes he was that old...never seemed like it if you ever saw him though...he was my baby. Anyways Maverick had to be put to sleep today....its seriously sad....it makes me cry even to type this....but I feel like I needed to put it in here. I feel so horrible I wasn't able to take him in....I wanted to be there for him....to pet him and let him know it was alright...but my mom had to do it. I just feel like sad...like I should have been there......when I got home he was always around....I know its gonna be so weird to go home and not have him run down the hall at me...meow'in and rubbing up against my leg.....or jumping up on the railing so I will pet him....meow'in so I look his way....I don't think I could ever get a cat like him....I miss him...
Its the things the last couple weeks that make me wonder if I made the right choice moving away
Tomorrow I got to my cousins funeral at Fort Hood....I have made two wonderful friends here....Jenny and Shelly....they are going with me....not to the funeral....but dropping me off....so I don't have to make the 3 hour drive by myself....they are taking work off for me....makes me feel...like God wanted me to see more....if that even makes sense....
Steven my friend here is leaving...he put his 2 week notice in today....so down a friend....however I am not that sad about him leaving....as much as I have been going through lately....he only focus's on himself and if someone asks me something and he feels like they are not gonna ask him something he makes a big deal outta nothing....
I think one of the lady's at work wants me hangin out with her daughter....I think I prolly will...one more person to hang out with.
Well....my eyes are all watery...puffy and my nose if full...I need to go lay down....
Love to you all....
and sorry for the debbie downers....I promise to try and meet her cousin....
Amanda Mae
Things have not gotten better for me....today my cat who I had for 17 years....yes he was that old...never seemed like it if you ever saw him though...he was my baby. Anyways Maverick had to be put to sleep today....its seriously sad....it makes me cry even to type this....but I feel like I needed to put it in here. I feel so horrible I wasn't able to take him in....I wanted to be there for him....to pet him and let him know it was alright...but my mom had to do it. I just feel like sad...like I should have been there......when I got home he was always around....I know its gonna be so weird to go home and not have him run down the hall at me...meow'in and rubbing up against my leg.....or jumping up on the railing so I will pet him....meow'in so I look his way....I don't think I could ever get a cat like him....I miss him...
Its the things the last couple weeks that make me wonder if I made the right choice moving away
Tomorrow I got to my cousins funeral at Fort Hood....I have made two wonderful friends here....Jenny and Shelly....they are going with me....not to the funeral....but dropping me off....so I don't have to make the 3 hour drive by myself....they are taking work off for me....makes me feel...like God wanted me to see more....if that even makes sense....
Steven my friend here is leaving...he put his 2 week notice in today....so down a friend....however I am not that sad about him leaving....as much as I have been going through lately....he only focus's on himself and if someone asks me something and he feels like they are not gonna ask him something he makes a big deal outta nothing....
I think one of the lady's at work wants me hangin out with her daughter....I think I prolly will...one more person to hang out with.
Well....my eyes are all watery...puffy and my nose if full...I need to go lay down....
Love to you all....
and sorry for the debbie downers....I promise to try and meet her cousin....
Amanda Mae