Episode 30: Letting go...
These are my confessions:
A promise is a promise…a promise is a promise…
Do these words have any meaning anymore, any true value? I once asked someone very close to me if he would still be there tomorrow, will he still care, will he still be my friend? My FRIEND, not my boyfriend, just a simple phone call now and then. His respsonse? “Of course I will, why would you EVER ask me that?!” I asked him that because it seems that no one is worth my trust (to those who are, I thank you and love you more than EVER) and he disappointed me by breaking my complete trust in him. I trusted him with something that was so important and sacred to me, something that I gave cause he showed me that he cared enough about me to be worth it, but that all changed. He changed, and I feel like I don’t even know him anymore Part of me wants to just give up and the other part just wants to hold on but I can’t try any harder than I do to keep a connection with him, and I can’t make anymore excuses because it’s wearing me down on the inside. It hurts too much to get my hopes up and then just get let down when I’m left with no reasons and no explanations and when every other conversation is fighting and lies and irritation, and broken promises. If he wants to call and talk to me, I’ll answer, I’ll be there because I still care, and I always will. Like I said even when I’m 80 years old I’ll stop short and I’ll think of him, I mean who could forget…and everything happens for a reason, God has a plan for everyone and I believe in letting fate run it’s course, and maybe this just isn’t the direction that God wants me to go and I can’t fight it. While it stings to the core, I’ve been avoiding it for far to long, and it’s time…to let go…
“Maybe someday I will see you again and you’ll look me in my eyes and call me your friend”
You've got to get better it's all in your head
We could live through these letters or forget it all together
See the months they don't matter it's the days I can't take
When the hours move to minutes and I'm seconds away
Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
We tried to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing about
When all that you need is just a reaction
It's too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore
When chasing our dreams is just a distraction
I want to remember when I know that I can't go back
Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
We tried to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing about
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.
Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
We tried to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.
A promise is a promise…a promise is a promise…
Do these words have any meaning anymore, any true value? I once asked someone very close to me if he would still be there tomorrow, will he still care, will he still be my friend? My FRIEND, not my boyfriend, just a simple phone call now and then. His respsonse? “Of course I will, why would you EVER ask me that?!” I asked him that because it seems that no one is worth my trust (to those who are, I thank you and love you more than EVER) and he disappointed me by breaking my complete trust in him. I trusted him with something that was so important and sacred to me, something that I gave cause he showed me that he cared enough about me to be worth it, but that all changed. He changed, and I feel like I don’t even know him anymore Part of me wants to just give up and the other part just wants to hold on but I can’t try any harder than I do to keep a connection with him, and I can’t make anymore excuses because it’s wearing me down on the inside. It hurts too much to get my hopes up and then just get let down when I’m left with no reasons and no explanations and when every other conversation is fighting and lies and irritation, and broken promises. If he wants to call and talk to me, I’ll answer, I’ll be there because I still care, and I always will. Like I said even when I’m 80 years old I’ll stop short and I’ll think of him, I mean who could forget…and everything happens for a reason, God has a plan for everyone and I believe in letting fate run it’s course, and maybe this just isn’t the direction that God wants me to go and I can’t fight it. While it stings to the core, I’ve been avoiding it for far to long, and it’s time…to let go…
“Maybe someday I will see you again and you’ll look me in my eyes and call me your friend”
You've got to get better it's all in your head
We could live through these letters or forget it all together
See the months they don't matter it's the days I can't take
When the hours move to minutes and I'm seconds away
Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
We tried to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing about
When all that you need is just a reaction
It's too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore
When chasing our dreams is just a distraction
I want to remember when I know that I can't go back
Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
We tried to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing about
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.
Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
We tried to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.