Episode 28:Permanent Heart Ache

[mandalin66]

These are my confessions:
OK...well, i'm goin crazy and it kinda hurts but i cant really write a simple entry cuz it'll just come out in a big huge mess of word vomit...soo i decided to tap into my creative side and write a lil poem/song

I have a permanent heart ache...
It feels like it will never go away
I've tried to fix it
with other thoughts and other feelings
But they never seem to stay

I have a permanent heart ache...
and I feel so helpless and I feel so lost
is there anything I can do
to fight for what feels so right
but it's so wrong, and it's not fair
He knows it too

I have a permanent heart ache...
So why does my face light up at the meer thought of him
and a smile that can't be wiped away when I see him
why is he the only one that makes me feel this way
So weak in the knees and my head in a daze
and it makes me crazy just thinkin 'bout it
him and all his amazing ways...

I have a permanent heart ache...
and it's just so hard to understand
why he's not here with me, to set me free
is that too much to ask for?

So for now I'll wait
it's all that I can do
please hurry before its too late
and this permanent heart ache
becomes permanently true...