busting outta this joint.
its time for a new job. seriously this time. i've been feeling a little isolated for the past couple weeks like nobody really likes me. ok so more so just been fed up with jordan and her smartass attitude. i let it show i guess because she doesn't speak to me anymore and god knows that she is above all there so everyone with their head up her ass for whatever reason also make it a point to block me out. i'm pretty sure bridgit is the only person i could call a friend there but i'm still weary of her because she runs her mouth about jordan to her face and then acts buddy buddy to her face so i'm kinda thinking its the same way with me though i'd like to think otherwise. i get frustrated because there is alot to do in the afternoons in terms of cleaning and i feel like i have no help and i'm doing it all while everyone else sits around. so naturally i'm pissed and i say absolutely nothing. and its been building up and building up and i guess maybe i'm the one doing the isolating. i don't wanna say anything to anyone because i feel like i'm gonna tell it like it is and piss someone off. regardless, there's alot to be done and i do 90% of it. yesterday i went to ask meca what time my latest kid leaves for the day so i can know if i need to take a break or not. she said yeas and by the way we need to discuss your schedule. she said i don't need you at one you can come in at three monday wednesday and friday and you cant stay past six on monday and you can't even get here til six on tuesday and thursday so i won't need you those days nor will i need you for night shift because i'm gonna have cierra take over because she'll already be here and she has to drive all the way from dixie so she could use the hours so basically i only need you for three to six monday wednesday and friday. WTF? if i'm the night shift person, whats the problem in letting me come in at six when the night shift starts? and why does a pregnant seventeen year old thats worked there for three weeks get my hours just because she lives on dixie? know why? because shes the assistant directors daughter. shes meca's best friends daughter. she'll love it. she'll love taking over the cleaning responsibilities and having to watch five or six kids at the same time. she'll love not getting out on friday night til close to ten. i'm glad i'm so easily replaced. i'm glad that i'm so worthless to that place after two and a half years that i can just be cut down to nine hours a week. fuck that. i do my job. i do everything that is asked of me. i go above and beyond whats asked of me. did i have to go in when her moms boyfriend died? no, but i did. i needed the hours and i wanted to help. i'm always early. i never go over my break time. yeah i forget little things here and there so what? i'm way better than anna who fucking forgot what her job was. and its not like someone can't remind me once thats all it takes. the day after she informed me of my cut in hours, she decides to appoint me to all the cleaning instead of just the 90% i already do. and it has to be done after six while i have usually six kids ranging in age from two to ten. all i do on night shift is finnish the dishes, clean the kitchen, clean the dinning room, finish the laundry and god knows theres more. but now along with all that i have to clean the bathroom, collect the trash from four rooms, take out the trash and vacuum the office and front room. and all of that has to be done in a matter of hours which isn't bad, but i have to actually be watching kids at the same time. if anyone can tell me how to multitask that situation, i'd love to know the secret other than being in two places at once. fuck that place. i'm done. i got applications for like six different places. joseph's salon and spa, kss, skyline, hobby lobby, ymca and dots. i'm getting out of there this time. i don't care about nights and weekends. i need to get out of there. i think the ones i'm most interested in is joseph's, ymca and dots. as soon as i get word of a job offer i'm out. i only hope my birthday plans don't get messed up in the transition. i'm making a change this time, i'm really going through with it.