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I just got off the phone with kristen. She had her baby about 2 and a half weeks ago. Her fiance' already left her. That is exactly why I am so afraid of having kids. I'm scared I'd have to do it on my own. I just talked to Eric too. We're trying this "space" thing. He says we spend too much time together, and that we need to try spending a day apart every once in a while. I know that that is what happens in normal relationships, but I just can't settle with my insercurites to let that happen. He's never given me a reason not to trust him, but I guess it's just because of previous mishaps that I act this way. Plus, I've let go of everything I knew when we first got together so now... he is my life. I have no other life other than being with him. I think I'm going to try to get a second job just so we have no other choice but to spend time apart and that way I'll be meeting more people to hang out with, and making more money. I think I might go back to working nights at Burger King, because I think I was a lot nicer to people then because I had to be... so it just kind of rubbed off on everyday living skills. Plus it would give me something to do... and maybe Eric some extra time to be by himself like he wants. Maybe then he might have a little bit too much extra time and would regret requesting that we give each other extra space. I admit that since day one we've been joined at the hip every second of our after working hours, but... our relationship has been different than mosts. I know that I love Eric very much and I am looking forward to spending forever with him. Every dream that I've ever had about my future, I have found that he has had the same dream... BEFORE he met me! I know he wasn't just saying that he wanted those things because he has heard me say them... because I never told him my dreams for my future. I'm so excited about possibly getting a second job because that would mean extra money. Well I have to go.