How the time has past
Wow i started this journal more then a life time ago (lol ok ok not that long) but it sure feels like it. Looking back at everything that has happened, the things i actually wrote about. Its a total blast from the past. I didnt know that i was going to grow up to be the person i am now, but i dont have any regrets. I actually didnt fuck up all that bad. And even though im not totally sure what im doing i am still learning one step at a time. I always wanted life to be perfect, but im glad that i grew up with it being just messed up. I would never have grown up to be the person i am now. Im not really one to pour out my words onto a "blog" or a "journal" but i can remember why i did it. I dont know who will read it or who would even care, but sometimes it makes me appreciate life a little more when i actually take the time to thnk about it, enough to find the words to explain how i feel about it. Then maybe in another few years ill remember and take a look just like i did before. Who was i to know that the words i wrote so long ago would actually still make me think now. Who was to know that i would still think the same way about some things that i did years ago. Or how much i have actually changed, for the better or for the worse (whos to judge). My life it now as the way i want it. With a few exceptions of course, nothing can be perfect. I have the things i want and even something i dont want, or things im not even sure that i want, but i wouldnt change it for anything. Finally getting my career started. Slowly but surely, and i believe that no matter what im good at what i do. I have not had one time where i thought that i didnt know what i was doing inthe industry. I knew the few day of make up class that this is everything tha ti have ever wanted. Again its not perfect but i love it. And as for relationships, i have my friends. My number ones and the ones that i just love to be around. Of course even my number ones sometimes show me that there is dissappointment no matter where you go, or who you go with. But i know that no matter what i always have my friends, and at least some one to call to talk to. And as for everything else in my life. Its going well. And i only expect them to gett better as i am finally working and can finally be independant. YEAH ME lol....
anyways. Till the next time
LOVE LOVE <3