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Everybody is just really getting on my nerves right now.
I had a thought, maybe its just me. But then I thought about it, really thought about it, u know analyzed myself, and its not me. I can often admit when im wrong but this is not one of those times.
Im really starting to miss Charles. I know he doesn't believe it, but I do, cuz as fucked up as our relationship was, he is one of the very very few people in this world who actually get me and if they dont get me, they'll except me inspite of it. Im dating new guys and we click, but its not me and him. I dont really care about the guys besides a select few and those I do, im always on a rollercoaster with. One minute we're on top, the next we're on bottom. I question why we bump heads like this but ultimately all I think it boils down to is that we're not meant to be. Its good for now, its nice in the meantime, but its not whats meant for either of us.
Speaking of dating, the whole dating thing at FSU is kinda shady. Its like if u cant get one guy, or u can get one girl, u just go on to the next and u try to build your team as large as u can. Here, its more about quantity than quality. It doesn't make me angry or bother me so much as I find it weird. Its not impossible to picture and its not like i can't relate to what people are doing its just a little weird.
Last night, Me and some of my friends got into a big discussion about religion. One of our friends is seeing someone who is Hindu and some of my friends have this belief that its okay to date this guy but ultimately hes going to hell. I think this is a very shallow way of thinking. First off, I am a christian and I believe that Jesus is the son of God and died on the cross for our signs and so on and so on. however, I simply dont believe that God sends everyone to hell just because they dont believe in the same thing as you and i. I believe that most people, not all (cuz somebody IS going to hell) are on different paths to the same ultimately reality. Meaning, they ultimately believe in the same God as you and I, they just dont worship in the same way. I cannot sit here as a person of faith and go against this, If someone believes in the same one true God as you and I, in whatever form, if they live a good life, do what they can for other people and repent for their sins whos to say they not going to heaven. There are too many good people in this world, living justly everyday, doing good for other people and living piously in their word of God to say such a thing. Excuse my language, but who the hell are you to judge who is going to heaven and who is not. I swear, christians can be some of the most hypocritical, judgement, racist, and hateful people on the planet--and somehow, we're right in front of the lines to the get into the pearly gates??? Just because we were fortunate enough to be taught something different that the rest of the world?? Just because we happen to live in the United States? See, the thing that irritates me about all of this, is not that people believe that. I understand and respect that they believe in what they do and I accept they may be right, but I just happen to believe otherwise. But it is insulting for them to discredit what I believe just because I haven't stuck my head in some radical written books. It is insulting that they dont respect what I think, they dont have to agree, just respect and try to relate like I did for them.
But I guess I can't ask them to do that, how could I? theyre too far ahead of me in line for salavation....
even with their mixed drinks in hand...but hey they believe in Jesus--so that makes it all okay...
Jessica and Malik...
Who are ya'll to judge?
Let those without sin, cast the first stone....
I had a thought, maybe its just me. But then I thought about it, really thought about it, u know analyzed myself, and its not me. I can often admit when im wrong but this is not one of those times.
Im really starting to miss Charles. I know he doesn't believe it, but I do, cuz as fucked up as our relationship was, he is one of the very very few people in this world who actually get me and if they dont get me, they'll except me inspite of it. Im dating new guys and we click, but its not me and him. I dont really care about the guys besides a select few and those I do, im always on a rollercoaster with. One minute we're on top, the next we're on bottom. I question why we bump heads like this but ultimately all I think it boils down to is that we're not meant to be. Its good for now, its nice in the meantime, but its not whats meant for either of us.
Speaking of dating, the whole dating thing at FSU is kinda shady. Its like if u cant get one guy, or u can get one girl, u just go on to the next and u try to build your team as large as u can. Here, its more about quantity than quality. It doesn't make me angry or bother me so much as I find it weird. Its not impossible to picture and its not like i can't relate to what people are doing its just a little weird.
Last night, Me and some of my friends got into a big discussion about religion. One of our friends is seeing someone who is Hindu and some of my friends have this belief that its okay to date this guy but ultimately hes going to hell. I think this is a very shallow way of thinking. First off, I am a christian and I believe that Jesus is the son of God and died on the cross for our signs and so on and so on. however, I simply dont believe that God sends everyone to hell just because they dont believe in the same thing as you and i. I believe that most people, not all (cuz somebody IS going to hell) are on different paths to the same ultimately reality. Meaning, they ultimately believe in the same God as you and I, they just dont worship in the same way. I cannot sit here as a person of faith and go against this, If someone believes in the same one true God as you and I, in whatever form, if they live a good life, do what they can for other people and repent for their sins whos to say they not going to heaven. There are too many good people in this world, living justly everyday, doing good for other people and living piously in their word of God to say such a thing. Excuse my language, but who the hell are you to judge who is going to heaven and who is not. I swear, christians can be some of the most hypocritical, judgement, racist, and hateful people on the planet--and somehow, we're right in front of the lines to the get into the pearly gates??? Just because we were fortunate enough to be taught something different that the rest of the world?? Just because we happen to live in the United States? See, the thing that irritates me about all of this, is not that people believe that. I understand and respect that they believe in what they do and I accept they may be right, but I just happen to believe otherwise. But it is insulting for them to discredit what I believe just because I haven't stuck my head in some radical written books. It is insulting that they dont respect what I think, they dont have to agree, just respect and try to relate like I did for them.
But I guess I can't ask them to do that, how could I? theyre too far ahead of me in line for salavation....
even with their mixed drinks in hand...but hey they believe in Jesus--so that makes it all okay...
Jessica and Malik...
Who are ya'll to judge?
Let those without sin, cast the first stone....