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I haven't been updating much.
Life has been stressful. Per usual.
I went to the doctor again this weekend. Another doctor telling me he had no clue what was wrong with me. That's been 6 doctors so far. At least he didn't give me more random pills. I have a list a mile long of the stuff I've been on these past few months. I have an appointment with another specialist next month. He will stick a camera up my urethra. I'm excited.
Its frusterating to not know what's wrong. Its always there...lingering in the back of my mind. I don't remember what it feels like to be normal. Its been that long.
Also last weekend, I crocheted 4 scarves in a day. That has to be some sort of record- or a personal one at least. I also finished the afghan for my grandfather's birthday. I wish I had taken pictures.
I feel pretty depressed right now. More tests to study for. When do they ever end?
I went to look at an apartment today for Adam and I but the Real Estate Agent gave me bad directions and I ended up there a half hour late. The Agent had already left. I feel like I've failed.
I'm so lonely right now. I hunger for Adam, for friends, for family, for someone just to be there....
God, this was a whiney post.
Life has been stressful. Per usual.
I went to the doctor again this weekend. Another doctor telling me he had no clue what was wrong with me. That's been 6 doctors so far. At least he didn't give me more random pills. I have a list a mile long of the stuff I've been on these past few months. I have an appointment with another specialist next month. He will stick a camera up my urethra. I'm excited.
Its frusterating to not know what's wrong. Its always there...lingering in the back of my mind. I don't remember what it feels like to be normal. Its been that long.
Also last weekend, I crocheted 4 scarves in a day. That has to be some sort of record- or a personal one at least. I also finished the afghan for my grandfather's birthday. I wish I had taken pictures.
I feel pretty depressed right now. More tests to study for. When do they ever end?
I went to look at an apartment today for Adam and I but the Real Estate Agent gave me bad directions and I ended up there a half hour late. The Agent had already left. I feel like I've failed.
I'm so lonely right now. I hunger for Adam, for friends, for family, for someone just to be there....
God, this was a whiney post.