Aiiyyee!!*
Well my day was alright...i wish a few things happened that really didnt even come close to happening..Kandice you know what i mean ..what is it with us and boys?? Geez..i need to just get over it! i wish i didnt like anyone ..really its so hard and it makes me so upset. Then Kandice told me something that happened at lunch today. Yeah its so stupid and a long story but it makes me soooo mad!!! Ahh! im gettin so frustrated lately. I just want to tell him but i dont want to ruin anything..yah know? Well i sure wish i knew what to do. And if it was the right thing. Like i want to see the affect it will have on him..if it will scare him or make him hate me? Idk..i just want him to feel the same way about me. Its okay though..time will tell. And i hope i know soon what i should do! im just thankful i have Kandice b/c she has been helping me out sooo much lately! Hehe..ill return the favor! I hope i can!! I just want both of us to be way happy! Hhehe..thats how sr year should be!! So why cant all the boys be here this year , why did they have to graduate? Really, they made me feel so much better and i actually had some guys to talk to..now i dont? The sr guys this year are all busy with other things. They cant even save some time to hang out again..like old times? Maybe they hate me? Who knows ..it was just a summer that i didnt hang out with you guys! And it was b/c The guys were going to college and we may never have seen them again? like alot went out of state. Ah..idk i will hopefully get what i want..i hope God spoils me when it comes to him..hehhe ..i want to be loved.