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well i'm sitting here at mom-n-dad's .. wishing i wasn't .. i swear i can't wait to get to go back to home to cody .. shew i miss him so so so so much .. i still get to see him everyday but it just ain't tha same .. i don't get to hold him of the nite and i don't get to just turn and talk to him whenever i want to .. he was always within arms reach of me and now he ain't .. i mean i only lived with him for 3 1/2 weeks but that wasn't enough i want it back .. i can't wait either .. we have our whole life together to just love and be us .. baby i can't wait either .. shew on the other hand i went and applied today at wal-mart hardee's and the DK at the end of town .. i might go apply at the food city at vansant too two of the girls in cosmo work there and they are hiring .. it wouldn't be that bad of a drive cause i'll be living back on tarpon next month *yAy* and if i don't get a job soon im going to go crazy .. i have to make atleast $49 a month cause that is what my insurance will be on my own policy haha which i think is very good i just hope i get hired somewhere .. i have to work i haven't not had a job since i was 12 and it just makes me mad that i don't have some sort of income coming in .. makes me feel like a failure .. but atleast i have everything else in life .. except for a decent family which really i want and need but ya know if ya kick your kid to tha curb at 17 what kind of parent are ya anyways right .. but atleast i had somewhere to go .. betty and rod were really sweet and welcomed me in and shit and that meant a lot and they gave me love and betty is like the mom that i always wanted .. shes so sweet and i can cut up with her and she tells me she loves me and washes my clothes and cooks us supper everynite and me and her do crafts together and go play with Madison all the time .. shew i love that kid shes so sweet i wish cody would break down and hold her tho hes scared of dropping her or hurting her haha .. everytime i hold her tho i bring her to him and she is so fasinated by him .. she likes to grab to his go-tee and not let go haha .. she does that to me and kayla and jeff tho too .. shes such a sweetheart shes gonna be such a heartbreaker when she gets older .. shes a doll i love her to death .. her and her mom and dad and jeff and karen haha we had a barbeque on labor day and we had kayla's parents and karens dad and his girlfriend and me and cody and betty and rod and kayla's brother justin and we had such a good time .. cody got jeff to charge up his AC on the olds and that is what we are driving for the time being haha we got tires for it the other day and a sticker and its ready to roll .. man that thang will really roll too let me tell you .. hilda is a mean mean machine haha .. he put tha cd player in it today so we can still jam out to my cash on tha road haha .. i love cash .. but we also have to listen to manson of course and he knows that shit man some of it is just demonic and i can't listen to it sends chills down me hahah he just says "pussy" like hes gonna change it haha "rebel rebel bitch bitch rebel rebel rebel party party sex sex sex and don't forget tha violence blah blah blah" haha ...
i've had to baby cody for the past couple of days hes been so sick .. i took him to the doctor yesterday and got him a shot .. shew we were in the office from 1-5 *ugh* it was bad .. haha he read all of the hotrod and bassmaster mags in the waiting room and i made him read parents and child magazine with me haha .. there was an article in there about some chick that was breastfeading her daughter and she is 5 years old .. i mean my god i know its healthy for 'em and stuff but shit thats ridiculious .. im going to breastfeed one day too but hell not 'till they are 5 years old shit .. thats crazy talk .. and the hotrod had the new Z-06 and i thought cody was going to shit his self .. has the LS7 in it and oh god you know how cody is about his engines haha .. gotta love him tho .. it was bad .. like 0-60 in 2.33 and 11.7 in a quarter mile and thats just stock .. its a bad mamma jamma .. ahah .. well jo-ho is pregnant congradulations jo i swear it seems like everyone is getting pregnant these days haha not lil ol me tho not for a while atleast .. can't afford one haha .. besides who would want to bring one into tha world with the way it is right now .. i mean hell atleast not for another 3 years when bush is out of office then maybe we can get a decent DEMOCRATIC president that would be nice .. vote back in clinton haha .. i know he got jiggy with it in office but everyone needs some every now and then i guess .. but anyways imma go and quit runnin my mouth and get in the bed .. me and cody are having a yard sale in the morning .. if you read it leave em ... pe@ce <*>anb-n-clm<*>
i've had to baby cody for the past couple of days hes been so sick .. i took him to the doctor yesterday and got him a shot .. shew we were in the office from 1-5 *ugh* it was bad .. haha he read all of the hotrod and bassmaster mags in the waiting room and i made him read parents and child magazine with me haha .. there was an article in there about some chick that was breastfeading her daughter and she is 5 years old .. i mean my god i know its healthy for 'em and stuff but shit thats ridiculious .. im going to breastfeed one day too but hell not 'till they are 5 years old shit .. thats crazy talk .. and the hotrod had the new Z-06 and i thought cody was going to shit his self .. has the LS7 in it and oh god you know how cody is about his engines haha .. gotta love him tho .. it was bad .. like 0-60 in 2.33 and 11.7 in a quarter mile and thats just stock .. its a bad mamma jamma .. ahah .. well jo-ho is pregnant congradulations jo i swear it seems like everyone is getting pregnant these days haha not lil ol me tho not for a while atleast .. can't afford one haha .. besides who would want to bring one into tha world with the way it is right now .. i mean hell atleast not for another 3 years when bush is out of office then maybe we can get a decent DEMOCRATIC president that would be nice .. vote back in clinton haha .. i know he got jiggy with it in office but everyone needs some every now and then i guess .. but anyways imma go and quit runnin my mouth and get in the bed .. me and cody are having a yard sale in the morning .. if you read it leave em ... pe@ce <*>anb-n-clm<*>