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I need to figure out what I'm going to do, where I'm going to move, where I want to go to school, what I want to be when I "grow up," how I'm going to survive.
Things that are happening soon that I am excited about:
-Getting my cable upgraded so I can watch Project Runway. hahahahaha. How fantastic.
-Getting a car...September 20-ish.
-Moving away
-Learning
-Living
-Laughing
-Hang outs with real friends
-Jenny Lewis...September 30
-Rocky Votolato...shiiiit, I need to find out when he's coming
-Jacket weather
Since I've returned to Pueblo I am feeling extremely on edge. I also feel like I am dying, not literally, but more like my heart is dying. I don't know. It's super difficult to explain. I know that I can't stay here.
Last night was ridiculous. I went to the bar with my mom and some girls from work. I was drunk within ten minutes of walking into the bar...like falling over, couldn't walk, drunk dialing. I'm kind of embarrassed but mostly not. I had a lot of fun and laughed more than I've laughed in a very long time. At some point I was underneath a table, calling all of my friends, trying to get them to bring me a cheeseburger. No one would. I then decided that everyone hated me. Pictures to come soon.
People I am missing hard right now:
-Chrissy
-Kenny
-Donald
-Janet (not my stepmom)
-Monica
-Douglas
-Stephanie
-Rhiannon
-Matt
-Chrissychrissychrissy
I need to see these people and I need to see them soon.
From where I am sitting right now I can hear my brother playing "Folsom Prison Blues" and singing. It is really entertaining and he doesn't sound too bad.
My rent is due on the 11th. I have no money and don't know what I am going to do. I will be getting a second job as soon as I get a car...maybe just a better job, not a second one.
I feel the need to be more creative. I need to write. I need to make things. I need to use my hands, heart, and mind more often.
Where has this year gone?
Things that are happening soon that I am excited about:
-Getting my cable upgraded so I can watch Project Runway. hahahahaha. How fantastic.
-Getting a car...September 20-ish.
-Moving away
-Learning
-Living
-Laughing
-Hang outs with real friends
-Jenny Lewis...September 30
-Rocky Votolato...shiiiit, I need to find out when he's coming
-Jacket weather
Since I've returned to Pueblo I am feeling extremely on edge. I also feel like I am dying, not literally, but more like my heart is dying. I don't know. It's super difficult to explain. I know that I can't stay here.
Last night was ridiculous. I went to the bar with my mom and some girls from work. I was drunk within ten minutes of walking into the bar...like falling over, couldn't walk, drunk dialing. I'm kind of embarrassed but mostly not. I had a lot of fun and laughed more than I've laughed in a very long time. At some point I was underneath a table, calling all of my friends, trying to get them to bring me a cheeseburger. No one would. I then decided that everyone hated me. Pictures to come soon.
People I am missing hard right now:
-Chrissy
-Kenny
-Donald
-Janet (not my stepmom)
-Monica
-Douglas
-Stephanie
-Rhiannon
-Matt
-Chrissychrissychrissy
I need to see these people and I need to see them soon.
From where I am sitting right now I can hear my brother playing "Folsom Prison Blues" and singing. It is really entertaining and he doesn't sound too bad.
My rent is due on the 11th. I have no money and don't know what I am going to do. I will be getting a second job as soon as I get a car...maybe just a better job, not a second one.
I feel the need to be more creative. I need to write. I need to make things. I need to use my hands, heart, and mind more often.
Where has this year gone?