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uhmmm. What am I doing with my life?
Right now... I feel like nothing. I know it's summer and I'm supposed to be happy doing basically nothing... but I'm not. I wish I had decided to take A+P this summer (even though it would have cost another couple thousand bucks) cuz I would feel like I'm actually doing something worthwhile. And I need to find another job, I just don't want to. I hate the thought of the hassel and stress of interviews, and first days, and first weeks, etc. I'm comfortable at Vincenzos, and I work with awesome people. It's just that I feel like I'm always there... but yet I'm making really crappy money for even crappier work now. I wish I had just taken the Marriot waitressing job. (see, this is why I hate making decisions... I usually make the wrong one.) I think I'm gonna go to Bertucci's today to see if they are hiring. And if they aren't, im gonna go to the Regency and see if they are.
I know it's crazy but I can't wait till school starts in the fall. I already am going crazy living back here, as much as I thought I hated living away. I hate this. I feel like I'm so inbetween. Thats why i think Ulowell will be so good. I don't hafta actually live at home, but I can still come home and hang out whenever I want... and then go back as soon as I've had enough. And me and casey and mindy went to the ulowell gym together yesterday and it was awesome... like rivals BU's gym. And we are living so close. Like roll-outta-bed-throw-on-clothes-walk-2-minutes-outside-close. And I'm so excited to live with Mindy, and have casey and julia 5 doors down, and be able to go to Life Alive and coffee places whenever we want to, and start classes and actually have a set plan on what I want to do with my next 3 years.... anddd partyyyy anddd...actually have like a realllll college experience.
Buttt... at the same time, I don't wanna rush summer. I can't wait till Nate's home for good, cuz I think it will feel a lot more like summer. And I miss him. Alot alot alot.
Right now... I feel like nothing. I know it's summer and I'm supposed to be happy doing basically nothing... but I'm not. I wish I had decided to take A+P this summer (even though it would have cost another couple thousand bucks) cuz I would feel like I'm actually doing something worthwhile. And I need to find another job, I just don't want to. I hate the thought of the hassel and stress of interviews, and first days, and first weeks, etc. I'm comfortable at Vincenzos, and I work with awesome people. It's just that I feel like I'm always there... but yet I'm making really crappy money for even crappier work now. I wish I had just taken the Marriot waitressing job. (see, this is why I hate making decisions... I usually make the wrong one.) I think I'm gonna go to Bertucci's today to see if they are hiring. And if they aren't, im gonna go to the Regency and see if they are.
I know it's crazy but I can't wait till school starts in the fall. I already am going crazy living back here, as much as I thought I hated living away. I hate this. I feel like I'm so inbetween. Thats why i think Ulowell will be so good. I don't hafta actually live at home, but I can still come home and hang out whenever I want... and then go back as soon as I've had enough. And me and casey and mindy went to the ulowell gym together yesterday and it was awesome... like rivals BU's gym. And we are living so close. Like roll-outta-bed-throw-on-clothes-walk-2-minutes-outside-close. And I'm so excited to live with Mindy, and have casey and julia 5 doors down, and be able to go to Life Alive and coffee places whenever we want to, and start classes and actually have a set plan on what I want to do with my next 3 years.... anddd partyyyy anddd...actually have like a realllll college experience.
Buttt... at the same time, I don't wanna rush summer. I can't wait till Nate's home for good, cuz I think it will feel a lot more like summer. And I miss him. Alot alot alot.