THINGS OF THE PAST THAT WILL FOREVER BE LOST IN THE FLAMES
as i finished calling various places that are offering appartments for rent around my area (yes, I've been calling eversince i got home from eating some my-TEE-fine porkchops and giving someone some brithday well wishes) i decided to clean my closet and start some fall weather clean up.
wow....the memories i have......the people that i once knew...
the feelings they once had for me....
i did'nt know it would make me feel that way
love letters
birthday cards giving well wishes covered with hugs and kisses
kind words of admiration and love
.....forgotten memories of a time that i did'nt realize that i was really cared for.
but the thing that hurts me the most......is that these people......all of em have forgotten me in the drop of a hat.
that these people now see me as their enemy
that they've changed so much for the bitter or worse.....while I've been the same person Ive been eversince I saw how cruel and unkind the world realy is.
these people have changed and with that their feelings that they had for me have turned to and almost regretable feeling across their minds and hearts.
if these people ever see me in the street....they might dismiss me and ignore me.....while others might confront me and hurt me with their words of hate.
hate that i do not know where it originated from...
I've done nothing.....i've been the same person ive been since ive known them
but them....they, on the other hand....have become who they are now: someone I've never met before
so with that.....Im keeping some of the memories....but the other have a date with oblivion
it's amazing what kinda stuff you can get away with when living in a queens neighborhood these days.......
anywho......closets clean....memories gone......places will call me tomorrow and then well, then i guess i'll be going apartment hunting tomorrow, i just hope they call back....
....seriously, none of these people picked up their phones....but i left messages
hope that counts for something.
my brother even agrees with me....i need, we all need to get out of here....
but its gonna atke money....a whole lot of spenind money.....
....crap, george harrison song refference
lol, oh well
later gaters.....
much love to those that actually care for me in the present
wow....the memories i have......the people that i once knew...
the feelings they once had for me....
i did'nt know it would make me feel that way
love letters
birthday cards giving well wishes covered with hugs and kisses
kind words of admiration and love
.....forgotten memories of a time that i did'nt realize that i was really cared for.
but the thing that hurts me the most......is that these people......all of em have forgotten me in the drop of a hat.
that these people now see me as their enemy
that they've changed so much for the bitter or worse.....while I've been the same person Ive been eversince I saw how cruel and unkind the world realy is.
these people have changed and with that their feelings that they had for me have turned to and almost regretable feeling across their minds and hearts.
if these people ever see me in the street....they might dismiss me and ignore me.....while others might confront me and hurt me with their words of hate.
hate that i do not know where it originated from...
I've done nothing.....i've been the same person ive been since ive known them
but them....they, on the other hand....have become who they are now: someone I've never met before
so with that.....Im keeping some of the memories....but the other have a date with oblivion
it's amazing what kinda stuff you can get away with when living in a queens neighborhood these days.......
anywho......closets clean....memories gone......places will call me tomorrow and then well, then i guess i'll be going apartment hunting tomorrow, i just hope they call back....
....seriously, none of these people picked up their phones....but i left messages
hope that counts for something.
my brother even agrees with me....i need, we all need to get out of here....
but its gonna atke money....a whole lot of spenind money.....
....crap, george harrison song refference
lol, oh well
later gaters.....
much love to those that actually care for me in the present