LITTLE BITS OF HAPPYNESS RAIN DOWN UPON ME
it's fair that you all know (well, those who realy know me) that i am still a kid inside when it comes to certain things in life. There's no denying that i would jump at the chance to let the inner child in me run wild.
thing is, with what also results in someone getting annoyed by it.
I can understand why others would question why some people would even be involved with me at times. But like i stated before, those people don't know how to truly smile.
last night it snowed.
with that came pieces of my memory comes to me as a child.
the pieces come to me in little portions, one right after the next.
it's mostly childhood memories, of times that were simple of times that realy mattered.
of times when i was'nt lost in the world and did not know what the real world had yet in store for me.
the snow hurries itseld from the clouds onto my trenchcoat in the urban streets of the city, and all i do is greeted with a smile..
how can you miss this?
how can you forget this?
many people bitch and moan and do whatever to complain once it's all rested on their cars, houses or streets. the snow has found a place to rest so of course everyone who is'nt happy about that tries to give it a rude awakening
"shit, now i gotta shovel that off"
"man, my commute is gonna be hell"
y'see that's an adult talking....you never hear a child say those kind of things now do you now?
no, their faces al lit up with excitement and no care in the world is gonna stop them from basking in the new playground the snow has created; their neighborhood.
this is the only time where your sorrounding become you own little wonderland.
snow angels, snowball fights, or just sitting back on your sled while dad pulls you aroud to enjoy the sights.
all those little memories of youth pass by in my mind when i saw the snow fall.
saw it from a window of a bar i was in....and drank to cellebrate the moment.
the canvas was'nt feasting on my feet that night walking on the pavement to the trainstation, because it was having comapny over , someone that it has'nt seen in a while....I'll give you a hint....it's white and made of ice.....yeah, you guessed right.
all i can do is look up as its coming down, and wonder what all the children are already pondering when they first saw the first flake pass across their windows that evening.
me, i just stood there.....because knew someone right now is missing this
that person is special to me, and the fact that this person is missing out on this event threw off some of the joy i had.....mostly because i knew the fun factor would go to 1000% is she was here with me...enjoying this with me....smiling....being the happy little girl that she must've been at age 3.
but i wont get to see that, so as the snow fell i stood there....thinking of the ways we coul've had fun. Making a silly looking snowman, snow agels...the works realy.
but the fact that it would be me and her having the fun together was what ran in my mind constantly.
but again....she's missing it out
and that sucks
no one should miss out on little moments of happyness like this
not ever not never.
so i took photographs of it......just felt that i had to.
just because she's not here right now, does'nt mean that she should miss out on it oneway or the other, right?
*sighs*
I put waaaaaay too much thought into things.
maybe all im realy trying to say is "i miss you"
and as that snow made an outer coating for me and my coat, that's what realy ran accross my mind that night.
as i woke this morning, the first things i wanted to do was post pictures of the snow i took from my carema and share what my neighbohood (well, yours realy...you lived here way before me) looked like.....but all those happy memories faded as i saw that the snow had melted away.
it must've stopped after i went to sleep, and the fact that it was sunny did'nt help the endurance of something that would have a problem staying stable whenever something hot approached.
so there i stood, with my forehead against the glass with a look of dissapointment on my face.
placing the camera in my pocket, i just stood there....trying to find a reason as to what had just happened.
snow melts...simple as that.
and with it, the memories i wanted to share with you....the one person who's missing ths right now
the one (2 people,actualy ) person who's on my mind always.
it's weird how many ways i can say "i miss you"
without ever realy saying the word itself....
guess what?
I miss you
thing is, with what also results in someone getting annoyed by it.
I can understand why others would question why some people would even be involved with me at times. But like i stated before, those people don't know how to truly smile.
last night it snowed.
with that came pieces of my memory comes to me as a child.
the pieces come to me in little portions, one right after the next.
it's mostly childhood memories, of times that were simple of times that realy mattered.
of times when i was'nt lost in the world and did not know what the real world had yet in store for me.
the snow hurries itseld from the clouds onto my trenchcoat in the urban streets of the city, and all i do is greeted with a smile..
how can you miss this?
how can you forget this?
many people bitch and moan and do whatever to complain once it's all rested on their cars, houses or streets. the snow has found a place to rest so of course everyone who is'nt happy about that tries to give it a rude awakening
"shit, now i gotta shovel that off"
"man, my commute is gonna be hell"
y'see that's an adult talking....you never hear a child say those kind of things now do you now?
no, their faces al lit up with excitement and no care in the world is gonna stop them from basking in the new playground the snow has created; their neighborhood.
this is the only time where your sorrounding become you own little wonderland.
snow angels, snowball fights, or just sitting back on your sled while dad pulls you aroud to enjoy the sights.
all those little memories of youth pass by in my mind when i saw the snow fall.
saw it from a window of a bar i was in....and drank to cellebrate the moment.
the canvas was'nt feasting on my feet that night walking on the pavement to the trainstation, because it was having comapny over , someone that it has'nt seen in a while....I'll give you a hint....it's white and made of ice.....yeah, you guessed right.
all i can do is look up as its coming down, and wonder what all the children are already pondering when they first saw the first flake pass across their windows that evening.
me, i just stood there.....because knew someone right now is missing this
that person is special to me, and the fact that this person is missing out on this event threw off some of the joy i had.....mostly because i knew the fun factor would go to 1000% is she was here with me...enjoying this with me....smiling....being the happy little girl that she must've been at age 3.
but i wont get to see that, so as the snow fell i stood there....thinking of the ways we coul've had fun. Making a silly looking snowman, snow agels...the works realy.
but the fact that it would be me and her having the fun together was what ran in my mind constantly.
but again....she's missing it out
and that sucks
no one should miss out on little moments of happyness like this
not ever not never.
so i took photographs of it......just felt that i had to.
just because she's not here right now, does'nt mean that she should miss out on it oneway or the other, right?
*sighs*
I put waaaaaay too much thought into things.
maybe all im realy trying to say is "i miss you"
and as that snow made an outer coating for me and my coat, that's what realy ran accross my mind that night.
as i woke this morning, the first things i wanted to do was post pictures of the snow i took from my carema and share what my neighbohood (well, yours realy...you lived here way before me) looked like.....but all those happy memories faded as i saw that the snow had melted away.
it must've stopped after i went to sleep, and the fact that it was sunny did'nt help the endurance of something that would have a problem staying stable whenever something hot approached.
so there i stood, with my forehead against the glass with a look of dissapointment on my face.
placing the camera in my pocket, i just stood there....trying to find a reason as to what had just happened.
snow melts...simple as that.
and with it, the memories i wanted to share with you....the one person who's missing ths right now
the one (2 people,actualy ) person who's on my mind always.
it's weird how many ways i can say "i miss you"
without ever realy saying the word itself....
guess what?
I miss you