I AM ALONE...I AM SAD....I AM USELESS
the times have passed
i have lost friends
i have lost what i fought for
i listen to "please, let me get what i want this time.....lord knows it would be the first time." and hope and pray that my own wish could be answered
...but it never happens
prayer, the last resource of a scoundrel
i am useless
i have no love
been taken advantage of way too many times
put my eggs in one basket....just to see them crushed before me
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up these defenses, you build this whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They do something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own any more. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darknes, so working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
in reality, im the stupid one.....everyone is right
just wanted to see if i can prove everyone wrong
a fight that i thought i would win
but i guess it was never or will it ever be....not as long as i live.
people hate me
some want to hurt me...
why bother resisting
let me face you with open arms and let you pummel me down
only then i can realize that it is for my own good.
someone who was once my bestest friend called me "needy"
but when she felt likewise, i was there to try and cheer her and make her smile....
but when it's my drama and problems, i am left alone
not even with a hug to show that it would be alright.
she wanted someone else's friendship more than mine...even if it's been 7+ years of good times.
She shrugs her shoulders to wonder why im even her friend these days..
i hate caring for people
I hate it because i fall in too deep
i hate it because i think it is the right thing to do
is everything i have ever done wrong?
every laugh, every joke, every good memory.....was all of it for naught?
the bad ones are rewarded more than the good, why bother being good?
this is the day, the official day i have completely died.
moonspider, edgar velasco...whatever the nametag is....this is the day that i have hurt myself the most...
this is the day that i have realized....that all i have done, everything and everyone.....all i am is an insignifficant waste of time.
i have lost friends
i have lost what i fought for
i listen to "please, let me get what i want this time.....lord knows it would be the first time." and hope and pray that my own wish could be answered
...but it never happens
prayer, the last resource of a scoundrel
i am useless
i have no love
been taken advantage of way too many times
put my eggs in one basket....just to see them crushed before me
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up these defenses, you build this whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They do something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own any more. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darknes, so working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
in reality, im the stupid one.....everyone is right
just wanted to see if i can prove everyone wrong
a fight that i thought i would win
but i guess it was never or will it ever be....not as long as i live.
people hate me
some want to hurt me...
why bother resisting
let me face you with open arms and let you pummel me down
only then i can realize that it is for my own good.
someone who was once my bestest friend called me "needy"
but when she felt likewise, i was there to try and cheer her and make her smile....
but when it's my drama and problems, i am left alone
not even with a hug to show that it would be alright.
she wanted someone else's friendship more than mine...even if it's been 7+ years of good times.
She shrugs her shoulders to wonder why im even her friend these days..
i hate caring for people
I hate it because i fall in too deep
i hate it because i think it is the right thing to do
is everything i have ever done wrong?
every laugh, every joke, every good memory.....was all of it for naught?
the bad ones are rewarded more than the good, why bother being good?
this is the day, the official day i have completely died.
moonspider, edgar velasco...whatever the nametag is....this is the day that i have hurt myself the most...
this is the day that i have realized....that all i have done, everything and everyone.....all i am is an insignifficant waste of time.