HE NEEDS TO LEAVE.
Fuck him and his stupid shit.
I am sorry I was tramatized by having to see a deer shot and then skinned right in front of me when I was eight.
What does that mean?
I can't handle seeing a chicken's body cut open and have its guts ripped out. I can't do it, and I can't watch it.
I am still shaking because I don't want to see it, and I physically and metally can't handle it. All it does is remind me of the day a deer was killed in front of me.
I am even hyperventalating.
I want to leave.
I hate him so much.
He of course started yelling and being and ass; as usual.
And my mom knew I was getting upset and told me I didn't have to watch. I mean hell, I was crying.
As I walked down the hallway, he called me a drama queen. I am not going to fucking take his stupid comments. I am tired of it all.
So naturally I turned and said, " I am sorry I can't handle dead things. YOU try being eight and seeing an animal go from alive and pretty to dead and covered in blood; to seeing its insides."
The mother fucker started yelling at me and telling me not to mouth off at him. SCREW HIM. I have never liked him and if it were up to me, he would be that deer. Even better he would be the fuck away from me.
As I came into my room, I could still hear the dick yelling.
I want away from here.
I am not eating dinner tonight.
No way in hell.
I hate that people don't understand why or how things get into my head.
Someone take me away from here.
I hate when people act as though nothing has happened, when obviusly it is something that bothers someone they care about. I can't fucking take it.
As I sit here, I am emotionless aside from the random tears and constant shaking. My side aches from the invisable fear that keeps kicking me in the stomach.
SOMTHING DID happen tonight. You would think if a mother truely loved her kid she would listen to them. Not my mother. god damn it i want out.
You are the only ones that understand me. You truely are.
I wish i had wings to soar out of here.
I want her to stop acting like he is invinsable and he is flawless. Because he is the most FLAWFULL human alive. FACE IT.
I want to be away.
There is no way out.
I need to run and hide my face to think. Iwill some day; i hope.
Fuck this is pointless.
I am sorry I was tramatized by having to see a deer shot and then skinned right in front of me when I was eight.
What does that mean?
I can't handle seeing a chicken's body cut open and have its guts ripped out. I can't do it, and I can't watch it.
I am still shaking because I don't want to see it, and I physically and metally can't handle it. All it does is remind me of the day a deer was killed in front of me.
I am even hyperventalating.
I want to leave.
I hate him so much.
He of course started yelling and being and ass; as usual.
And my mom knew I was getting upset and told me I didn't have to watch. I mean hell, I was crying.
As I walked down the hallway, he called me a drama queen. I am not going to fucking take his stupid comments. I am tired of it all.
So naturally I turned and said, " I am sorry I can't handle dead things. YOU try being eight and seeing an animal go from alive and pretty to dead and covered in blood; to seeing its insides."
The mother fucker started yelling at me and telling me not to mouth off at him. SCREW HIM. I have never liked him and if it were up to me, he would be that deer. Even better he would be the fuck away from me.
As I came into my room, I could still hear the dick yelling.
I want away from here.
I am not eating dinner tonight.
No way in hell.
I hate that people don't understand why or how things get into my head.
Someone take me away from here.
I hate when people act as though nothing has happened, when obviusly it is something that bothers someone they care about. I can't fucking take it.
As I sit here, I am emotionless aside from the random tears and constant shaking. My side aches from the invisable fear that keeps kicking me in the stomach.
SOMTHING DID happen tonight. You would think if a mother truely loved her kid she would listen to them. Not my mother. god damn it i want out.
You are the only ones that understand me. You truely are.
I wish i had wings to soar out of here.
I want her to stop acting like he is invinsable and he is flawless. Because he is the most FLAWFULL human alive. FACE IT.
I want to be away.
There is no way out.
I need to run and hide my face to think. Iwill some day; i hope.
Fuck this is pointless.