So Tired
Its 7:17 and I just got back from school. See, school ends at three but I have Volleyball practice till 5, but I ask Blad to come pick me up at 6 since I feel I do homework better when Im still in a school enviroment. To many distractions at home, however I wasn't finished by the time he came, and he was kind enough to wait for me to finish so in return I bought him something from the My Place nearby. It was really nice so honestly Im not all that annoyed or upset but Im rather worn out.
Cat joined Volleyball today, so now I have a friend on it. I like everyone on my team--they are all nice and we are on good terms but none of them are people I really connect with.
Speaking of Cat I had a nice conversation with her after school, its been a while since the two of us have had time to do that. School has kept us completely apart. For a while she talked about her breakup with Kurtis, uncertain as to whether it was the best thing to do. She felt that they didn't really connect the way they use to and that there was alot of tension between them. She still felt really deeply about him, but wasn't certain if it was romantic anymore. He was a big distraction for her in school--and the way its going now that was quite bad. Everyone seems to agree that there was a huge leap in difficulty from ninth to tenth.
We began to speak about how there was hardly any time for anything else. If Im not doing homework, Im thinking about the work I havent done yet. If Im not thinking about the work I haven't done yet, I'm thinking about how much harder it will get. I'f Im not thinking about that, Im thinking about college. PSATs, SATs, PLAN, what colleges are potentially for me, how difficult they are to get into, the cost, if I'll be able to go anywhere, the difficulty. Mom keeps reassuring me that things will be easy for me now that I'll have my brothers to help but I'm less then convinced. I want to go visiting colleges but without my dad I have no one to take me---Bladi and Neta are almost always busy so I don't want to ask them.
Oh well, I'll find a way.
Cat joined Volleyball today, so now I have a friend on it. I like everyone on my team--they are all nice and we are on good terms but none of them are people I really connect with.
Speaking of Cat I had a nice conversation with her after school, its been a while since the two of us have had time to do that. School has kept us completely apart. For a while she talked about her breakup with Kurtis, uncertain as to whether it was the best thing to do. She felt that they didn't really connect the way they use to and that there was alot of tension between them. She still felt really deeply about him, but wasn't certain if it was romantic anymore. He was a big distraction for her in school--and the way its going now that was quite bad. Everyone seems to agree that there was a huge leap in difficulty from ninth to tenth.
We began to speak about how there was hardly any time for anything else. If Im not doing homework, Im thinking about the work I havent done yet. If Im not thinking about the work I haven't done yet, I'm thinking about how much harder it will get. I'f Im not thinking about that, Im thinking about college. PSATs, SATs, PLAN, what colleges are potentially for me, how difficult they are to get into, the cost, if I'll be able to go anywhere, the difficulty. Mom keeps reassuring me that things will be easy for me now that I'll have my brothers to help but I'm less then convinced. I want to go visiting colleges but without my dad I have no one to take me---Bladi and Neta are almost always busy so I don't want to ask them.
Oh well, I'll find a way.