I HAVE FOUND IT!!!

[mamoore]

the song that perfectly described my life. its like my freaking soundtrack. its movin on by rascal flatts. and it goes like this...
I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived that I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on

now i know that was a lot to read but once you have if you know me at all you can pretty much say that its me. it defines my life as it has been up to this point and exactly how it feels now. i dont really even know what else to say other than this was the high point of my day. its just not gettin much better and im ready for the summer to be here. maybe that will make life better/easier. we shall find out soon enough i suppose