Damn Guys

[mamme1213]

Did a whole lot of nothing today but my night was interesting. I decide to go run at like 6 or something. So I go. And I see this guy that I "almost" dated like forever ago. We're talking years and years ago. And he's out of high school now and i dont see him that often but ya know sometimes i'll see him around. So anyways, he shows up at the same time i do, to play basketball. And he says hey to me, and i go over and start talking to him. We get caught up, the basics ya know that you have when you haven't seen someone in a lifetime. He has a girlfriend, it's not going great blah blah. The guy says something about how he sees me like out in public ya know but can never talk to me because there's "just something about me" and i was like "a good something or bad" and he precedes to tell me that he always thinks about and has never really gotten over me and it kills him when he sees me, ya know the works. So I'm standing there and thinking about all this...trying to take it in. And i dont really say anything back to him. And so he starts asking me about my love life. Now, i tell him about the guy i'm crazy about, can't stop thinking about...but that's an hour away and how it makes things hard. So we kinda rap it up or whatever and i leave to go to Justin's. Now...it really really got me thinking about my current situation. And even though i have doubts..because i'm Aimee and i can't help it...it's not bad like it makes me happy to think of him as corny as that sounds lol. So i wait...and i dont know what on...and i'm trying my damnedest "not to worry about it" and honestly doing a good job at it (i know aimee not worrying, what's the world coming to). And maybe not worrying and waiting, and caring and holding on is the worst thing i can be doing right now...but i can't help but think that it might all be worth it. And becaus it's sooo not like me to trust someone with all of me, is why i believe every word he says so much. Yeah it scares me, but i just can't be so closed up when i'm around him..that has to mean something right?

Had to get that out...i may change this later though because i have to go