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I'm sorry you guys. I fucked up hardcore.
I shouldn't have ditched you all and hten been rude on the phone- I was being so fucking selfish. I was just worried about myself, and then about MY ass that I was flipped out about saving adn stranded him in Old Farm.
I don't knwo what I've been doing the past couple weeks/nights. Some of the things I've done just aren't me, aren't who I am. I haven't been thinking things through enough, I've been acting too rashly, and I definitely fucked up this time.
Clay, too, even though I know he doesn't read this. I left so rudely and then put him in such an awkward position with my mom. I'm so sorry clay.
I think it's a good thing summer is ending. I need more control in my life, and summer scares me.
I shouldn't have ditched you all and hten been rude on the phone- I was being so fucking selfish. I was just worried about myself, and then about MY ass that I was flipped out about saving adn stranded him in Old Farm.
I don't knwo what I've been doing the past couple weeks/nights. Some of the things I've done just aren't me, aren't who I am. I haven't been thinking things through enough, I've been acting too rashly, and I definitely fucked up this time.
Clay, too, even though I know he doesn't read this. I left so rudely and then put him in such an awkward position with my mom. I'm so sorry clay.
I think it's a good thing summer is ending. I need more control in my life, and summer scares me.