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sorry im not keeping up with this journal better but things just aren't going good for me to have something to write about all the time.
don't know if i mentioned it but i got fired from mcdonalds cause i caught a manager talking shit about me to a crew member. long story short, i called him out on it, and he didn't like what i had to say so he told me to clock out and go home. it sucks, and i can't seem to find another job. so pretty much all i do anymore is just sit at home.
i finally started school yesterday so that is a good thing. im proud of myself for taking the step to try it again after what happened with it last year. if i keep up with it and don't let myself falter, i should have my associates for criminal justice by august of next year. i still have no idea what i want to do with it, but having that degree, i can work virtually anywhere in the criminal justice field. and depending on how good i do with this year, i might go again for my bachelors. with my bachelors, i can work with fbi, dea, at atf. can you imagine me working with cops with all the stuff i've done in my life and all the shit i talk? should be interesting.
so my birthday is in a week and im not even excited. i don't want anything for my birthday but thomas still went and got me something. what, i don't know but i told him i don't want it and he needs to send it back. then he told me if i returned it myself than i had to leave and go back to florida. doesn't he understand that all i want IS to be back in florida? im so god awfully depressed here. there isn't anything to do or anywhere to go. i dont have any friends, i don't have a life. want to know what my day is, and waht i do everyday? wake up at 11, watch maury till 12, then i watch spike tv from 12 to 2, then i watch MTV till 3, AFV from 3 to 4, then maury again from 4 to 5. when maury is over, then i go upstairs so thomas's mom can spend time with the girls till thomas gets home from work. my life is so damn pathetic now. what makes it worse is everyday i talk to maggie and she is always out doing something with ashley (another mutual friend). it just pisses me off cause my friends still get to see each other every day and im stuck up here in bum fuck egypt wishing im with them.
as much as i am looking for a job, i really don't want to work. i would rather sit at home and be bored all day then to bust my ass for shitty pay. i love my kids to death but i wish i could put them in daycare all day just so i can get SOME kind of break from them. thomas always says he'll take care of them when he gets home and that never happens. it's always on me. he doesnt understand that yes i may be sitting at home all day doing nothing but just because i don't work doesn't mean that i'm not entitled to a break from them. if he would just help me out a little more with them, i wouldn't be such a bitch to him.
god i wish i could just make an update with nothing but good things to say. i haven't been able to do that in awhile. and that just makes me feel more shittier about my life.
don't know if i mentioned it but i got fired from mcdonalds cause i caught a manager talking shit about me to a crew member. long story short, i called him out on it, and he didn't like what i had to say so he told me to clock out and go home. it sucks, and i can't seem to find another job. so pretty much all i do anymore is just sit at home.
i finally started school yesterday so that is a good thing. im proud of myself for taking the step to try it again after what happened with it last year. if i keep up with it and don't let myself falter, i should have my associates for criminal justice by august of next year. i still have no idea what i want to do with it, but having that degree, i can work virtually anywhere in the criminal justice field. and depending on how good i do with this year, i might go again for my bachelors. with my bachelors, i can work with fbi, dea, at atf. can you imagine me working with cops with all the stuff i've done in my life and all the shit i talk? should be interesting.
so my birthday is in a week and im not even excited. i don't want anything for my birthday but thomas still went and got me something. what, i don't know but i told him i don't want it and he needs to send it back. then he told me if i returned it myself than i had to leave and go back to florida. doesn't he understand that all i want IS to be back in florida? im so god awfully depressed here. there isn't anything to do or anywhere to go. i dont have any friends, i don't have a life. want to know what my day is, and waht i do everyday? wake up at 11, watch maury till 12, then i watch spike tv from 12 to 2, then i watch MTV till 3, AFV from 3 to 4, then maury again from 4 to 5. when maury is over, then i go upstairs so thomas's mom can spend time with the girls till thomas gets home from work. my life is so damn pathetic now. what makes it worse is everyday i talk to maggie and she is always out doing something with ashley (another mutual friend). it just pisses me off cause my friends still get to see each other every day and im stuck up here in bum fuck egypt wishing im with them.
as much as i am looking for a job, i really don't want to work. i would rather sit at home and be bored all day then to bust my ass for shitty pay. i love my kids to death but i wish i could put them in daycare all day just so i can get SOME kind of break from them. thomas always says he'll take care of them when he gets home and that never happens. it's always on me. he doesnt understand that yes i may be sitting at home all day doing nothing but just because i don't work doesn't mean that i'm not entitled to a break from them. if he would just help me out a little more with them, i wouldn't be such a bitch to him.
god i wish i could just make an update with nothing but good things to say. i haven't been able to do that in awhile. and that just makes me feel more shittier about my life.