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so this girl that i don't like up and pops back into my life. whenever she comes around it only means trouble follows between me and thomas. awhile ago it got so bad that i gave him the ultimatum of me or her. i never do that and i hate to be the kind of girlfriend like that. but i really felt the relationship was in danger cause of this girl. now she pops up again and all is well cause she has a man. now all of a sudden she sends thomas a message on myspace saying that she might be single again and leaves it at that. i know this can't mean anything good. now me and him got cell phones again and i told him he could talk to her cause i don't like having to act the way i do. but i still feel really uneasy about this situation. im wondering if i should talk to her, not be mean, but talk to her on the sly and see if there is anything i need to worry about. i really don't like acting like this but im scared to lose him to someone else but im also scared i might find things out that might jeopradize this relationship. i've already said if i find anything out whether it be before now or afterwards me and thomas are done. i went back and forth with chris about cheating on people for 2 years. i'll be damned if i go through that again. i don't know what i should do.
i really like my new job. i don't know if i said that before, but i really do like this job. im not sure why, but to me it's kinda fun. then again 10 bucks an hour makes it a whole lot easier to like.
im starting to do really bad in school again. im trying to get caught up but when i get caught up, i become a slack ass on the shit that's due now. i don't want to fuck this up like i did in high school but it's so hard to focus on it when i work ALL day, come home and take care of the baby. by the time she goes to sleep, im ready to pass out myself. i'd do some schoolwork at work, but i don't get enough time between phone calls to do that. im averaging 50 ro 60 calls a day. that's rough. i really have to find a balance in this but it's not working. i don't know what im going to do once thomas starts this other job.
im starting to get a whole bunch of letters about my pall grant, but i can't understand it to see what im going to get. i have one letter that says i got 2500 but then i have another one saying i got 4000. i don't understand it lol. im just hoping i find out soon, cause we spent way way too much money from my income tax, and im hoping to use some of the leftover money to help get us in the apartment and to get a computer. we'll see what happens.
i really want a new layout but i don't have the time to make one. im thinking im going to have to find someone who is willing to do that for me.
i just realized that im awake 18 hours a day and i sleep for 6. you know that can't be good. probably explains why im getting sick. either that or im just smoking too much.
time to get ready for work.
i really like my new job. i don't know if i said that before, but i really do like this job. im not sure why, but to me it's kinda fun. then again 10 bucks an hour makes it a whole lot easier to like.
im starting to do really bad in school again. im trying to get caught up but when i get caught up, i become a slack ass on the shit that's due now. i don't want to fuck this up like i did in high school but it's so hard to focus on it when i work ALL day, come home and take care of the baby. by the time she goes to sleep, im ready to pass out myself. i'd do some schoolwork at work, but i don't get enough time between phone calls to do that. im averaging 50 ro 60 calls a day. that's rough. i really have to find a balance in this but it's not working. i don't know what im going to do once thomas starts this other job.
im starting to get a whole bunch of letters about my pall grant, but i can't understand it to see what im going to get. i have one letter that says i got 2500 but then i have another one saying i got 4000. i don't understand it lol. im just hoping i find out soon, cause we spent way way too much money from my income tax, and im hoping to use some of the leftover money to help get us in the apartment and to get a computer. we'll see what happens.
i really want a new layout but i don't have the time to make one. im thinking im going to have to find someone who is willing to do that for me.
i just realized that im awake 18 hours a day and i sleep for 6. you know that can't be good. probably explains why im getting sick. either that or im just smoking too much.
time to get ready for work.