Just remembering ...
FROM THIS:
TO THIS:
Crazy huh? I can't believe by this weekend, my so called 'baby' is going to be a year and a half ... well 15 months old to be exact. That's almost 2 years ... oh my gosh, it's going by too fast, and this makes me sad ... :'(
Before I know puberty will hit me like a ton of bricks ... and then the teenage years .. oh god, I can see it now, my mother nagging me and saying :"You see?? This is what I went through with you!"
Sigh, on the brightest side, this year's holidays will be more fun. I cannot wait to go out 'trick or treating' ... and candies for me, guilty as charged! I just hope she doesnt get scared ...
The Christmas lights show at Ladysmith, she will finally notice them. How exciting! I already got our tree, it's almost as big as Naima, so she can reach up it and put our angel at the top ... holy, listen to me, already talking about Christmas .... Heather (
yummymummy9905) is totally right. I quote: " You are one of those mothers, the ones that get so into holidays. You'll be baking cupcakes to Naima's class every holiday"
And she is so right. I am that mother, I can't help it, I'm a creative person! ... The mother that I didn't have when I was a kid.
Yes, she was always taking care of us, working 24/7 but never really got into the holidays. I don't want to be like her. I love her to death but, it seems as though I can't talk to her about anything. She criticizes, nags and judges so harshly. Now more than ever, I try to avoid visiting with Naima, because apparently, everything I do is wrong.....I hate how I can't communicate with her, talk to her about my dreams and goals, and have her moral support. I feel like I'm losing her ... And I don't want the same thing to happen between Naima and I. I know I can't be her best friend, but I don't want her to be afraid to talk to me about anything that crosses her mind.