2009
2009 has been a pretty bad year for me. As a matter of fact, I'm just going to go ahead and write off 2006-2009 as complete bullshit. I've encountered the two biggest heartbreaks of my life that have taken me to the brink and back. After Jeffry and I split, my heart was broken. Not because I wanted to be with him or that we even had a happy marriage- but ending a marriage is just heartbreaking. I went straight from that to my Dad getting diagnosed with terminal cancer. He passed away on November 17th, 2009 at 4am. My heart is still completely broken. I feel like I have lost so much. Losing my Dad was the biggest loss of my life. After my divorce from Jeffry, I thought my heart couldn't break anymore. Boy, was I wrong. I literally felt as though my chest was completely destroyed when my Dad died. I still can't believe he's gone. I deal with my grief every day. The holidays can totally suck it. Bring on 2010. If this year doesn't improve dramatically, I am declaring my 20's officially over and I will celebrate my 30th birthday in November.