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I am trying to find clarity on all the life confusion that I have exited out of. How would I ever come to the realization that everything I have been taught to think and believe is constructed. How would I or anyone else have found their way out of these words, sentences, beliefs, and life responsibilities we think we are supposed to be living. I live by expressing how I feel from the inside, and somehow that makes me too different, unable to fit in. That being said, why would I want to fit in for that matter. Why would I compensate my freedom to just to be ok, just be accepted? This not fitting in with the world around me has brought me to this place of insight, of awareness, that everything is just a construction of mind. I'm out of the thicket. But i'm not out of the mundane. Right now I feel as though I am being forced to work at these jobs I don't want to be at, and do these things that I don't want to do. For what? To keep this structure together? What is the point of my life being together if I am not existing how I truly want to be. Starting a business, going to school, and getting a higher paying job all seem too limiting. How do I cut these shackles and find my rightful freedom as a living being. I did not choose to be here in this constructed world, but whoever created my life chose to be alive in this universe. Now that I can see this, my only option is to find a way to freedom.