that unsettling feeling in the pit of your stomach....

[mambomoose]

so tonight didnt turn out quite as planned.
it was still fun, but very uneasy

alan fucked me over so we broke into my mom's cinnamon schnapps.
it was good.
but nobody wanted to drink.
i felt like i needed to be doing something....
drinking was just the only thing that seemed appropriate.

and i was high for so fucking long
(the joys of quitting, LOW TOLERANCE)
and we talked alot.
but sometimes i felt like no matter what i said i couldnt be right
even when i said it was a misunderstanding
and i understood what the other person said,
but this was the way i saw it.

this is probably just some strange after-effect
and i will probably be over it tomorrow.
lately i am just hypersensitive
and i get frustrated and angry quickly
and i am trying to remedy this
but it is difficult.

so, this is me venting
about the uncomfortable air around me
and even though i know nothing is wrong,
it still feels like something shouldnt be happening
or should be happening
i really dont know

im going to go smoke a cigarette
and ill feel better in the morning.