we're in the middle of the beginning
I'm sorry I've been away so long. Life has been too exciting...for the most part.
Life is really good right now. I don't mean perfect. In fact, its pretty far from perfect. Love is hard, it hurts a lot, and the thing about loving someone is that you tend to have all these expectations that destroy everything. But I'm going to focus on the good stuff. Because that's what happy people do. It is, right? And I want to be a happy person from now on. It would be liberating, I think. So, here goes.
1. Everyday I wake up in a house filled with 3 people who love me unconditionally.
2. Everyday after dinner I can still snuggle up against my father and watch Raymond, joking about how much of Raymond/ Robbie/ Frank I see in him.
3. My mother still runs and jumps into my arms to give me a panda hug on random days when she is happy I'm home.
4. My brother wrestles me to the ground everytime I try to give him a hug, but its all good because this is how he shows he loves me.
5. I have so many wonderful friends a phonecall/ a bus ride away.
6. My fridge is never empty.
7. I live in a household where chocolate is a necessity.
8. I have a job I love and that loves me back.
9. My A levels are OVER. This is still a thrilling fact.
10. I have my whole life ahead of me.
11. I have a chance at a scholarship, something I thought was never even remotely possible.
12. My colleagues are terribly awesome.
13. I know a boy who loves me, even though he can't show it all the time.
14. I see my future self as a big, bright, cheery, happy person again. She is beautiful and fantastic at what she's doing and I can't wait to meet her.
It's not much but it's my world, and its wonderful. I think for now I'm going to be more active here, I seem to have lost my rapport with words and am now resorting to other forms of creative expression. But I'll be around :)
Oh, and you should make your own list too. Because the Universe appreciates gratitude, and works with it.