thinking
so ive been thinking alot lately a/b me and sarahs friendship, and no this isnt an i want to end the friednship... see weve been friends since kindergarten, almost 13 years now but the problem is weve really grown apart. and we used to be soooo close but then i guess we went to middle school and didnt see each other as much and we made new friends. then tho we decided together that wed go to ndb b/c how cud hs not be awesome if u were going w/ ur best friend. and we were sorta close but then i guess we just made friends w/ different ppl and now were not really close anymore. and i cant say that ive been trying so hard to salvage the friendship b/c i kno i havent. i guess tho lately ive just started to realize how much i value it and how i miss having a best friend. and shes got this other friend and now theyre inseperable and ill be completely honest ya im jealous and it kinda hurts because it proof that i have been completely replaced. its stupid of me to be so hurt over this though because i kno im not making an effort i guess ive started to try to rebuild the friendship and its not like we ever had a falling out. and its funny b/c the person who knew me the best is more of an acquaintance now and its really depressing in a sense b/c weve lost that bond i guess. and i kno weve both changed so i guess its just whast expected, u grow up and u grow out of ur friedns and make new ones and keep moving on. well maybe im not ready to grow up and be finished w/ childhood friendships even tho i kno im still a child but o i dunno anymore... ive lost my train of thought... and want my best friend back anyways ill do a real update later...