gosh..........
Since it is 1:31am, it is technically the 8th of february. That means that today is the one year anniversary of the day that Ryan left. Its been a year. Too bad it feels like 5. ok, I lied a little bit. some days, it doesn;t feel like he's been gone that long. Other days, I sometimes feel like I will die if i have to go ANOTHER year without talking to him on the phone or seeing him in person. Its hell. I grab the phone STILL sometimes and go to dial him. I had to take him off "speed dial" for that reason. lame. I miss my best friend. more than freaking anything. can he come home now??? pleeeeeeeeeeeease?????