Skipped most of my church meetings this morning.
I really was in no condition to be around other people. So I went outside, walked across the parking lot and sat on a bench outside the OKC temple. I thought, cried and talked with God. I feel better now. Need a nap, though.
Figured out my first nightmare. I am confusing the tree-monsters in my life with the trees. And I do have some people in my life blaming me for being in a place someone else put me in. Not just blaming me, but wanting to punish me for it. And I do have someone who is working to help me.
A few years ago, my friend Roberta and I discussed my personal archetypes, and she suggested that I try to invite my Warrior/Guardian archetype to materialized in the form of a helpful person in my life. Last year, I decided this attempt didn't work. Today, I realized that it had and I just hadn't seen it.
There were several other things I took from the dream about myself and my life. Like that I have been living in terror and reacting a lot, but that my instincts have been good and understandable, even if they haven't lived up to what I think I need to be doing.
Another realization is that the physical healing art exercises appear to be having some effect. I haven't been exercising or dieting in any conscious way, but I have had three people tell me lately that I look like I've lost weight. My mom thinks I've been standing taller, which would in turn help my digestive system and etc. For whatever reason, there is a visible result. I need to keep at it.
Figured out my first nightmare. I am confusing the tree-monsters in my life with the trees. And I do have some people in my life blaming me for being in a place someone else put me in. Not just blaming me, but wanting to punish me for it. And I do have someone who is working to help me.
A few years ago, my friend Roberta and I discussed my personal archetypes, and she suggested that I try to invite my Warrior/Guardian archetype to materialized in the form of a helpful person in my life. Last year, I decided this attempt didn't work. Today, I realized that it had and I just hadn't seen it.
There were several other things I took from the dream about myself and my life. Like that I have been living in terror and reacting a lot, but that my instincts have been good and understandable, even if they haven't lived up to what I think I need to be doing.
Another realization is that the physical healing art exercises appear to be having some effect. I haven't been exercising or dieting in any conscious way, but I have had three people tell me lately that I look like I've lost weight. My mom thinks I've been standing taller, which would in turn help my digestive system and etc. For whatever reason, there is a visible result. I need to keep at it.