Dec 20, 2007 16:57
JG won't leave me alone now.
he keeps texting me, writing me shit on myspace, saying he has weed & he'll come over & get me high...
DUDE.
if you think you have to bribe a girl with drugs to get her to hang out with you after you involve her in an abusive situation...
then 1. you have no self-esteem, and 2. SHE DOESN'T LIKE YOU. IF SHE DID SHE WOULD RETURN YOUR GODDAMN CALLS.
and he knows i have a boyfriend.
so why can't he just leave me the fuck alone?
he scares me.
seriously.
today i actually considered a restraining order.
yeah. it's that bad.
on a different note..
He is in a bad mood.
i don't know what i did, but he's being such an asshole right now.
granted, i'm being a bitch, cuz of all the appointment bullshit today that i won't even go into..
but banana came back into town (minus the mom) and we were hanging out.
i finished His scrapbook, i just have to dress it up now, and i have a few presents to wrap
other than that and cleaning the apartment up i'm good
and i know what his deal is.
he's being a bitch because we're driving home tomorrow night.
so he's doing that ihavesomuchtogetaccomplished thing, the thing he ALWAYS does when stuff needs done, and he's turning it all into
this big huge fucking deal, which it's not.
we pack some shit, we get some sleep, we drive home, and ho ho ho Merry Christmas, everything's cool
no.
that's not how he operates.
i swear to god the man actually Likes stressing himself out
maybe it makes him feel more accomplished at the end of the day
and he L-O-V-E-S to bring me down into the anxiety-whirlwind with him
dude.
just because i'm your girlfriend (and i love him, i do) that doesn't mean i should have to freak out and turn into holidayjerk with you every time we have a busy couple days.
and he knows i never get to see banana anymore
so she wants to go bowling tonight
big friggin woop
if we can go out to dinner and to the movies and all that, we can afford to go bowling with banana
but no
and then he's the martyr?
that makes no sense.
i just want to do some yoga, take a shower, try to look decent for these damn christmas pictures that i'm going to have to smile pretty in later, and chiiiiiiiiilllllll.
i'm about ready to rip someone's head off.
not a good day for me.
not a good day.
namaste.
Ray