so, so angry
i just changed the background of the computer next to me to a thought bubble that says "i am feeling angry about this, i better calm down and deal with it". so thats my incredibly subdued mentality right now. apparently we lost or almost lost the entire issue of the newspaper. i dont even know what to think. this guy carter is downloading some kind of software to try and recover it. im pretty confident that he will recover it, i mean, i dont even want to think about what would happen if we acutally have to start over. the deadline is in a week. we are/were almost done. i dont even know how i feel about this. so incredibly blank is the word that comes to mind. i dont want to be dramatic. there are worse things happening in the world. but the entire issue. ive worked on it for about 4 hours a schoolday for 3 weeks now. all the stories, the graphics, pictures, headlines... everything gone? no, it cant be. i dont believe it. i need to blame this on someone. no, stupid. i am so helpless about this. i just type it in my lj. i am worthless. just this morning i fixed every single page. everything is/was so close to being perfectly fine. next friday is the deadline. its not gone. what do i do now? it just needs to be fixed NOW. oh, god...