Why do I apologize?
Last night, I had just downloaded my new recipe software (I know, I'm a geek), and I was busy entering in all of my recipes into my computer. Thomas was asleep and Matt was going to bed. No problems, right? Until a half hour later, when I head downstairs and hear Matt shushing Thomas and Thomas crying. I had no idea he was awake, or I probably would have headed downstairs. So, I go into the bathroom, brish my teeth, wash my face and then i go to take Thomas from Matt, and he gives me this look. You all know it - the where-the-hell-have-you-been-while-I've-been-taking-care-of-this-baby look. So, what do I do? I apologize. "I'm sorry, honey. I didn't hear him crying. I'll take him." And he climbs back in bed while I calm Thomas down.
Huh?
I didn't occur to me until this morning that this is his baby, too. I shouldn't have to apologize for him having to take xare of things every once in awhile. Sure, he's at a disadvantage cause he doesn't have the magic boobs. I'll grant him that. But you know what? It's been over 9 months. You should have found your own magic boob by now. There are times when you're going to have to be able to soothe your child on your own, and I won't be standing right down the hall to do it for you. So, why the hell do I feel the need to apologize when that happens?
Now, Matt's a faboo dad. He loves Thomas, no doubt. They have the most fun together. He makes him laugh, big belly laughs. Thomas plays more games with Matt than with me. They are a great pair. But when it comes to calming, soothing, it's like he gives up, thinking he just can't do it. And that's kind of frustrating sometimes.
And here's the kicker. It's not the I mind taking Thomas. I enjoy rocking him, nursing him, soothing him. But I don't want Matt to think that I'm the only one who can. At first i thought it was because I just take over and don't really give him a chance. But if I don't come running, he comes to find me, or he calls out for me to come and help. I don't know that there's anything that will help. Just venting, I guess.
Huh?
I didn't occur to me until this morning that this is his baby, too. I shouldn't have to apologize for him having to take xare of things every once in awhile. Sure, he's at a disadvantage cause he doesn't have the magic boobs. I'll grant him that. But you know what? It's been over 9 months. You should have found your own magic boob by now. There are times when you're going to have to be able to soothe your child on your own, and I won't be standing right down the hall to do it for you. So, why the hell do I feel the need to apologize when that happens?
Now, Matt's a faboo dad. He loves Thomas, no doubt. They have the most fun together. He makes him laugh, big belly laughs. Thomas plays more games with Matt than with me. They are a great pair. But when it comes to calming, soothing, it's like he gives up, thinking he just can't do it. And that's kind of frustrating sometimes.
And here's the kicker. It's not the I mind taking Thomas. I enjoy rocking him, nursing him, soothing him. But I don't want Matt to think that I'm the only one who can. At first i thought it was because I just take over and don't really give him a chance. But if I don't come running, he comes to find me, or he calls out for me to come and help. I don't know that there's anything that will help. Just venting, I guess.