An endless drone, but good nonetheless
I am a living, healthy human being at the doorstep of a whole new door to a whole new room. Tonight I went out and just...drove. I had three of my closest friends with me, and I could feel the force pulling us all to just keep moving forward. So we did. We drove up north, past the school and scottsdale mountain, past Cups, into Fountain Hills, out of Fountain Hills, onto what I think was the B-line (we weren't really paying attention), and a good 1/2 to 3/4 of the way to Payson. We took a small deserted detour and ended up on the exact same road heading back towards home. I will tell you, as we sat there with the wind whipping upon our faces and the music blasting in our ears, screaming along with the cd, the lights of the city set out in front of us, I felt free. We all did. It's not to say I wasn't free before. I mean, you create your own solitude, not the other way 'round. But, it was that itching feeling in my gut that I could go further and further, until I just...wanted to turn around. I could feel it all around me. I know they could feel it too. All but two of my best friends were there in the car with me. Of course you were missing, but only in body, that blasted thing that seems to hold you back every time. Sara was missing too, probably off galavanting in her own magical moments of greatness. But I felt you and her there, in my gut, in my heart. I am writing this and my eyes start to swell, what a wus I am, but it's true. I feel so blessed, so gifted. It's like I've been handed a box containing all the secrets and meanings to human existence, and it is my job to guard it, to cherish it. I am honored, let me tell you. I am grateful for those that I have met, every single one of them, even the ones that I despise because I know those people have made me stronger and smarter. I so enjoy the company of people, especially good people. I always knew I would be one of those types to love sitting in awkward silence with three of my friends, than sitting in complacency by myself. It's gotta be that only child thing. For all the times I've felt lonely, it has been my faith in people, in the true goodness of the human race, no matter what attrocities some of them may commit, that has protected me in my darkest days. Thankyou to each and every one of them. Every breath each of them takes brings a new vitality to this air that we share. In this way, I wouldn't be here without every one of them. I just hope that all of them feel as blessed as I do. The uncanny bond that we humans share is like none among any other species.
To all who may be listening and all those everywhere else: Be thankful for that person sitting next to you, they could change your life. I am scared for what lays in store for us, but I am confident that we will get through it, together.
To you: Tomorrow, every step, every word, every blink of my eye, even the smile on my face, will be for you. Tomorrow, I may get to walk before you, but you have already flewn farther and to greater heights than I can ever hope to reach.
To all who may be listening and all those everywhere else: Be thankful for that person sitting next to you, they could change your life. I am scared for what lays in store for us, but I am confident that we will get through it, together.
To you: Tomorrow, every step, every word, every blink of my eye, even the smile on my face, will be for you. Tomorrow, I may get to walk before you, but you have already flewn farther and to greater heights than I can ever hope to reach.