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hmmm saturday
its raining outside so any prospects of going to downtown and looking for bridesmaids dresses is pretty much a no-go. Although i don't really mind the rain...apparently everyone else does. whatever. no rush.
i really want today to be a good day. I woke up rather early for a weekend (8:30) stayed in bed for a while, got up, got myself some breakfast and sat in bed to do aimless things on my computer. I really want to garden, but well..rain and gardening dont really mix.
i made squash cookies yesterday. minus the ginger and nuts and i used acorn squash that i'd made two days ago that i didnt want to finish. http://www.recipetips.com/recipe-cards/t--1959/squash-cookies.asp
turned out really good...only i accidentally used bread flour instead of all-purpose so they turned out extra cakey/bready. I should have made it into a loaf instead, but whatever..they still turned out good. I'm in a baking mode, more so for bread and cakes, but neither of which i eat much of anymore. plus since im A) trying to be more health conscious and B) hoping that somehow I can shrink myself before the wedding...its probably not the best idea for me to do a whole lot of baking. Though, I do feel like i should just bake and give out bread and cake to other people. hmm..i dont know. Most likely ill start my day and ill end up doing everything but baking and then my weekend will be over and the work week will start and I wont have any time until next weekend (and then the routine repeats itself).
I have to do searches for wedding colors/dresses blah blah blah and i dont really feel like it. I'm still excited for everything, but im sorta over it. I just want to be married and have things move forward. I frankly think its bullshit that I cant have sas live here with me. I mean its pointless. we're together practically every night, either at my house or his and we always stay longer than we should and sleep later than we should (given the time we have to wake up in the morning) and it'd just be soooo much easier if we just stayed in one place all the time and slept in the same bed. I mean we're already practically married. what's a stupid paper gonna do (oh yes, it'll make our parents feel that its ok for us to be in the same house without fear that other family members will talk about us behind our backs and shame the family -- but even then, its not the paper, its the actual wedding. technically, if we had a wedding and never got our marriage license, no one would probably care...which seems sorta backwards if you think about it...*ponder)
Anyway, it sorta sucks but whatever. we have to play the game until september and then we can finally be just "us".
He's going to Thailand in March to visit his friend. I know that everyone'll be against his going (esp his mother who will worry from now until the day he lands back in LA), but I sorta pushed it. I mean, its a freakin' once in a lifetime opportunity. He has a good friend that went there to teach english. He knows everyone, everything, every eating place...he has a place for him to stay. Why wouldnt you go? Its like a perfect scenario set up for you. Ya i'll miss him a bunch, but maybe it'll be good. We havent been apart since we met plus maybe ill find my groove again and he'll have experienced something great that he can share with me through pictures. it'll be good. I'll go visit my sister in Eugene and it'll be all good.
hm..what to do...what should i do today. I need to go buy milk...we have a raw milk distributor that sells milk near my house for cheaper than it is at the stores. I've come to like raw milk. tastes like milk, but it doesnt have any of the side effects that i typically have with pasteurized milk, plus it has all the natural enzymes and stuff in it that help digestion. i admit its a bit crazy to spend 6.50 for a half gallon of milk, but i like it better than soy and i hate lactaid milk. its a good trade off.
I like being home far too much. If i could just stay within my living area (yard included) and never had to leave, I think i'd be happy. well..maybe for a while. I'd probably go crazy after a while. hmm what to do today...i dunno. i'll figure it out.
off i go!
its raining outside so any prospects of going to downtown and looking for bridesmaids dresses is pretty much a no-go. Although i don't really mind the rain...apparently everyone else does. whatever. no rush.
i really want today to be a good day. I woke up rather early for a weekend (8:30) stayed in bed for a while, got up, got myself some breakfast and sat in bed to do aimless things on my computer. I really want to garden, but well..rain and gardening dont really mix.
i made squash cookies yesterday. minus the ginger and nuts and i used acorn squash that i'd made two days ago that i didnt want to finish. http://www.recipetips.com/recipe-cards/t--1959/squash-cookies.asp
turned out really good...only i accidentally used bread flour instead of all-purpose so they turned out extra cakey/bready. I should have made it into a loaf instead, but whatever..they still turned out good. I'm in a baking mode, more so for bread and cakes, but neither of which i eat much of anymore. plus since im A) trying to be more health conscious and B) hoping that somehow I can shrink myself before the wedding...its probably not the best idea for me to do a whole lot of baking. Though, I do feel like i should just bake and give out bread and cake to other people. hmm..i dont know. Most likely ill start my day and ill end up doing everything but baking and then my weekend will be over and the work week will start and I wont have any time until next weekend (and then the routine repeats itself).
I have to do searches for wedding colors/dresses blah blah blah and i dont really feel like it. I'm still excited for everything, but im sorta over it. I just want to be married and have things move forward. I frankly think its bullshit that I cant have sas live here with me. I mean its pointless. we're together practically every night, either at my house or his and we always stay longer than we should and sleep later than we should (given the time we have to wake up in the morning) and it'd just be soooo much easier if we just stayed in one place all the time and slept in the same bed. I mean we're already practically married. what's a stupid paper gonna do (oh yes, it'll make our parents feel that its ok for us to be in the same house without fear that other family members will talk about us behind our backs and shame the family -- but even then, its not the paper, its the actual wedding. technically, if we had a wedding and never got our marriage license, no one would probably care...which seems sorta backwards if you think about it...*ponder)
Anyway, it sorta sucks but whatever. we have to play the game until september and then we can finally be just "us".
He's going to Thailand in March to visit his friend. I know that everyone'll be against his going (esp his mother who will worry from now until the day he lands back in LA), but I sorta pushed it. I mean, its a freakin' once in a lifetime opportunity. He has a good friend that went there to teach english. He knows everyone, everything, every eating place...he has a place for him to stay. Why wouldnt you go? Its like a perfect scenario set up for you. Ya i'll miss him a bunch, but maybe it'll be good. We havent been apart since we met plus maybe ill find my groove again and he'll have experienced something great that he can share with me through pictures. it'll be good. I'll go visit my sister in Eugene and it'll be all good.
hm..what to do...what should i do today. I need to go buy milk...we have a raw milk distributor that sells milk near my house for cheaper than it is at the stores. I've come to like raw milk. tastes like milk, but it doesnt have any of the side effects that i typically have with pasteurized milk, plus it has all the natural enzymes and stuff in it that help digestion. i admit its a bit crazy to spend 6.50 for a half gallon of milk, but i like it better than soy and i hate lactaid milk. its a good trade off.
I like being home far too much. If i could just stay within my living area (yard included) and never had to leave, I think i'd be happy. well..maybe for a while. I'd probably go crazy after a while. hmm what to do today...i dunno. i'll figure it out.
off i go!