Jan 17, 2010 19:40
Its been most of the winter that a feeling of inadequacy has washed over me, such that I feel embarrassed when talking to others. Although I have enjoyed reconnecting with people, either directly over food, or indirectly over our electronic social networking tools (LJ, Facebook, Email, etc), I feel that I have nothing to share. Friends and Family of mine all seem to be doing pretty amazing wonderful things in some part of their life. I think the amount of talent that is represented by my friends (athletic, artistic, social and intellectual) is large, and diverse.
In contrast, I'm boring.
I can't brag about anything I do. The pattern of my life is mundane. There isn't any particular aspect about my life that I am completely absorbed in or define myself in the context of. There are things I enjoy doing, and occassionally I get to do them, but nothing impressive.
Funny thing is, I like leading a calm life. I worry that this fact itself if perceived as odd.