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God I feel misserable today, I have been sick since yesterday and going over alot of stuff and regretting most of it but things happen for a reason.....
chirstmas was nice and quiet... laid around watched movies and eat dinner.... kids left around 7pm to go hang out with their friends... so i had some alone time... i hate alone time cause then my mind starts going over stuff and then my heart starts to hurt then i am a wreck again... so at least today at work i will be busy or aleast try to be.....
I truly lost the man i love my own fault but i quess to people can love each other very much and not be together... why is that i don't know... but it has happened.... It will take time for me to get over rick but i know i can do it.... it is meant to be this way then i leave it all in gods hands....
so if you read this jessica,,, i am a dummy for messing things up and very sorry i involved you in my and your dads problem.... I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me....
mamadee
chirstmas was nice and quiet... laid around watched movies and eat dinner.... kids left around 7pm to go hang out with their friends... so i had some alone time... i hate alone time cause then my mind starts going over stuff and then my heart starts to hurt then i am a wreck again... so at least today at work i will be busy or aleast try to be.....
I truly lost the man i love my own fault but i quess to people can love each other very much and not be together... why is that i don't know... but it has happened.... It will take time for me to get over rick but i know i can do it.... it is meant to be this way then i leave it all in gods hands....
so if you read this jessica,,, i am a dummy for messing things up and very sorry i involved you in my and your dads problem.... I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me....
mamadee