If Things Were the Way they Used to Be!
It seems like the only time I find myself writing in this thing is when HE is on my mind.
One minute we're re-building, the next minute we're the demolition crew. In my deepest sentiments I wish everything could go back to the way it was, but I know that's not possible. "The only thing constant in this world is CHANGE" ~India Arie~
Only on nights like this, when I am alone, I think of HIM the most. If things were the way they used to be, I wouldn't be alone right now. We would be on the phone listening to each other breathe contently. Him coming up with "What IF" scenarios and me following aside him with my optomistic response, letting him know that his IDEAL world was indeed POSSIBLE "with hard work." HE would be making plans into the next weekend asking me to join in on his escapades and adventures.
So close that he became my wake-up call and my mid-night love. So close that he was my primary reason for joyous emotion. So close that his feelings closely correlated my reactions. So close... We were closer than close!
Now I am sitting here in loneliness... Reflecting on our closeness. I am sullen by my lose of friendship and so much more. I am sullen by his ABSENCE!
If Things Were the Way they Used to Be...
I would never give up on US! He would know how I felt.
"If you LOVE someone TELL THEM!" ~Luther Vandross~
One minute we're re-building, the next minute we're the demolition crew. In my deepest sentiments I wish everything could go back to the way it was, but I know that's not possible. "The only thing constant in this world is CHANGE" ~India Arie~
Only on nights like this, when I am alone, I think of HIM the most. If things were the way they used to be, I wouldn't be alone right now. We would be on the phone listening to each other breathe contently. Him coming up with "What IF" scenarios and me following aside him with my optomistic response, letting him know that his IDEAL world was indeed POSSIBLE "with hard work." HE would be making plans into the next weekend asking me to join in on his escapades and adventures.
So close that he became my wake-up call and my mid-night love. So close that he was my primary reason for joyous emotion. So close that his feelings closely correlated my reactions. So close... We were closer than close!
Now I am sitting here in loneliness... Reflecting on our closeness. I am sullen by my lose of friendship and so much more. I am sullen by his ABSENCE!
If Things Were the Way they Used to Be...
I would never give up on US! He would know how I felt.
"If you LOVE someone TELL THEM!" ~Luther Vandross~