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Hello my dears!
Sorry I've been neglecting my journal. I read all yours so don't think that I don't care, I definitely do! So...
I gave blood today. It was the first time that I have done it not in a doctors office. The only blood that I have had drawn was only a small tube at the doctor's. So this was a little scary for me. I mean, gosh, they take a whole bag of MY blood! I was nervous so my friend Rachel went with me and just talked to me while I was being stuck and kept my attention off of the blood rushing out of MY arm. But I feel good about it now. Red Cross will send me a donor's card that shows what type of blood that I have and then I can use it next time that I donate. I helped two people today!!! Yay, I feel so good about it! I will definitely do this again... to bad they don't pay you for your blood!
I have 16 days until I am totally done with school and home for the summer! I can't believe it! My first year of college done and over. My classes seem to be piling more and more work as these last days approach. Grrr!
I don't know how I will last the summer though. I will love spending time with you all, but it's the family that I am worried about. Over Christmas break I felt like I was going crazy and ready to shoot someone. That was only a month, I can't imagine the whole summer at home. I will just have to occupy my time with working and spending time with my peeps. I want to make and effort to see some baseball games of Chris and Sean's though. They will be on the same team this summer so I can watch both of them at the same time. Yay! Summer will be ok, I guess. I will just really miss being on my own. I like my independence. I like choosing when I go to bed and how late I stay out and what i do with my weekends. I hate having my parents watch over my shoulder criticizing every move. How I spend my money, who I hang out with.. all that shit is my business. I am responsible and I will learn my way even if I make a few mistakes along the way. I have done well and made responsible choices so far. Can't they trust me? I know I am their little girl, but still... I am not 10 any more.
Wow, that sounds a little selfish now that I read what I wrote. I love my family and I respect what my parents say. I want to please them but at the same time I feel torn when my desires conflict with their expectations for me. Yeah, that is it. I want to please them, but this is my time. I will do what I want... to an extent, I will not do things purposely that I know will deeply hurt my family.
This summer will be an experiment to see what I can do. Not just concerning my family.. But I want to stretch my boundaries and push myself to do more, to live more, to try new things, to see just what I am capable of. This summer is the summer for me. I will work hard, push myself, and pamper myself. Should be fun filled. We'll see what happens.
So that is all I have for now. I miss you all. And I can't wait to see everyone this summer. I get out of school the first week of May. I was hoping to make a trip up to Bellingham to see Lindsay and then over to see Derrick and wear a "Vote For Derrick" shirt during his campaign. It will be splendid!
XOXO
Mal
Sorry I've been neglecting my journal. I read all yours so don't think that I don't care, I definitely do! So...
I gave blood today. It was the first time that I have done it not in a doctors office. The only blood that I have had drawn was only a small tube at the doctor's. So this was a little scary for me. I mean, gosh, they take a whole bag of MY blood! I was nervous so my friend Rachel went with me and just talked to me while I was being stuck and kept my attention off of the blood rushing out of MY arm. But I feel good about it now. Red Cross will send me a donor's card that shows what type of blood that I have and then I can use it next time that I donate. I helped two people today!!! Yay, I feel so good about it! I will definitely do this again... to bad they don't pay you for your blood!
I have 16 days until I am totally done with school and home for the summer! I can't believe it! My first year of college done and over. My classes seem to be piling more and more work as these last days approach. Grrr!
I don't know how I will last the summer though. I will love spending time with you all, but it's the family that I am worried about. Over Christmas break I felt like I was going crazy and ready to shoot someone. That was only a month, I can't imagine the whole summer at home. I will just have to occupy my time with working and spending time with my peeps. I want to make and effort to see some baseball games of Chris and Sean's though. They will be on the same team this summer so I can watch both of them at the same time. Yay! Summer will be ok, I guess. I will just really miss being on my own. I like my independence. I like choosing when I go to bed and how late I stay out and what i do with my weekends. I hate having my parents watch over my shoulder criticizing every move. How I spend my money, who I hang out with.. all that shit is my business. I am responsible and I will learn my way even if I make a few mistakes along the way. I have done well and made responsible choices so far. Can't they trust me? I know I am their little girl, but still... I am not 10 any more.
Wow, that sounds a little selfish now that I read what I wrote. I love my family and I respect what my parents say. I want to please them but at the same time I feel torn when my desires conflict with their expectations for me. Yeah, that is it. I want to please them, but this is my time. I will do what I want... to an extent, I will not do things purposely that I know will deeply hurt my family.
This summer will be an experiment to see what I can do. Not just concerning my family.. But I want to stretch my boundaries and push myself to do more, to live more, to try new things, to see just what I am capable of. This summer is the summer for me. I will work hard, push myself, and pamper myself. Should be fun filled. We'll see what happens.
So that is all I have for now. I miss you all. And I can't wait to see everyone this summer. I get out of school the first week of May. I was hoping to make a trip up to Bellingham to see Lindsay and then over to see Derrick and wear a "Vote For Derrick" shirt during his campaign. It will be splendid!
XOXO
Mal