RIVER OF THOUGHT
The ASU doctor is worse then the neurologist who first diagnosed me with MS in the year 2001!
Over time through experiences, I am trained how much to tell certain people. For example, I only tell some doctors that I was diagnosed with MS, since some doctors will automatically stamp me with MS and never test for anything else and then never care to even help me at all or give me drugs that will work, since my first drug that I refused to take was taken off the market because it was killing people!
AGE 9- First started suffering with Arthritis.
AGE 16- Diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis and scoliosis.
AGE 20- Diagnosed with Mitral Valve Prolapse.
Always suspected ADD and low blood pressure and hyperglycemia.
Currently AGE 24- Focus and memory that's always been bad is worse then ever and my gift of vocab retention and languages used to be great and now failing all my easy vocab papers in school!!!!!!!!!!!
and terets... hee hee.
So today, the doctor basically called me an idiot for not taking her beta blocker drugs but I know too much, and I'm not to the point of heart problems to take those drugs, and she called me occultish to rely on natural health and she feels so sorry for me with how blinded and in denial I am! She is a person I don't tell much to because she has only judged me negatively every time I see her! She also wants to only treat the symptoms and not care about the root cause, and that's where we disagree!
MY GOAL: Take advantage of the insurance to get to the root of all possible answers, because it has been about ten years with no insurance!!! So I am going to every specialist and learning on my own what is going on, and giving only a piece of knowlege about myself to each specialist and MD. Even MS means multiple symptoms, so I have always believed in common sense that I should heal individual symptoms, besides keeping the BBB strong in the first place!
PRAY FOR STRENGTH IN MY ADVENTURE IN FINDING TRUTH, FOR STRENGTH WITH THE PERSECUTION I GET FROM SOME DOCTORS BY CALLING ME NAMES, AND ACCURACY AND ANSWERS FOR ALL MY HEALTH TESTS!!!! ALSO MERCY IN SCHOOL AND FOR FOCUS!!!!
ADDITIONALLY WITH CHURCH, I'VE BEEN RAISED CATHOLIC SINCE I WAS A BABY! I would be sleeping up front with my parents leading worship in Oregon. Then I went to Four Square and my St. Fancis Church. I went to Calvary, and to my grandmother Church of Christ Church. Then I moved to Oregon where I went St. Tims and the Epicopal Church. I was always judged that I was going to two different churches, or I'm too young to prophesy in church, and then when I saw demons, that was unheard of so I must be possessed, and the fight goes on and on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Going to a church womens group last Saturday was interesting. I sat across the table with anti-Catholics, and I didn't fit their box so I'm possessed again and have no gift all all in their church. If they only knew my history of sexual harrassment, getting into witchcraft from sayances (spelling?) to bloody mary, and then after attacks of seeing demons, I was babtized in the Holy Spirit and through God I prayed healing for people and they were healed and I used to hear God talk to me.
NOW I'M IN REBELLION!!!!!!!!!! I'M SO TIRED OF IT ALL AND CAN'T WAIT TILL JESUS COMES BACK AND PLEASE SAVE US FROM OURSELVES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's pretty basic when you think about it. God is love and with free will there is sin and without a savior, everyone will burn in hell! :) NICE! Not that people should preach that way! Just know that above all is LOVE!
My life chapter right now is living in fight or flight! My Heart Rate has been in the high 90's for the last six months. Today it was 97, so I just have been elliminating all stressors.
PLEASE HELP ME LORD IN LIFE, SCHOOL, AND HEALTH!!!!!!!!!
Over time through experiences, I am trained how much to tell certain people. For example, I only tell some doctors that I was diagnosed with MS, since some doctors will automatically stamp me with MS and never test for anything else and then never care to even help me at all or give me drugs that will work, since my first drug that I refused to take was taken off the market because it was killing people!
AGE 9- First started suffering with Arthritis.
AGE 16- Diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis and scoliosis.
AGE 20- Diagnosed with Mitral Valve Prolapse.
Always suspected ADD and low blood pressure and hyperglycemia.
Currently AGE 24- Focus and memory that's always been bad is worse then ever and my gift of vocab retention and languages used to be great and now failing all my easy vocab papers in school!!!!!!!!!!!
and terets... hee hee.
So today, the doctor basically called me an idiot for not taking her beta blocker drugs but I know too much, and I'm not to the point of heart problems to take those drugs, and she called me occultish to rely on natural health and she feels so sorry for me with how blinded and in denial I am! She is a person I don't tell much to because she has only judged me negatively every time I see her! She also wants to only treat the symptoms and not care about the root cause, and that's where we disagree!
MY GOAL: Take advantage of the insurance to get to the root of all possible answers, because it has been about ten years with no insurance!!! So I am going to every specialist and learning on my own what is going on, and giving only a piece of knowlege about myself to each specialist and MD. Even MS means multiple symptoms, so I have always believed in common sense that I should heal individual symptoms, besides keeping the BBB strong in the first place!
PRAY FOR STRENGTH IN MY ADVENTURE IN FINDING TRUTH, FOR STRENGTH WITH THE PERSECUTION I GET FROM SOME DOCTORS BY CALLING ME NAMES, AND ACCURACY AND ANSWERS FOR ALL MY HEALTH TESTS!!!! ALSO MERCY IN SCHOOL AND FOR FOCUS!!!!
ADDITIONALLY WITH CHURCH, I'VE BEEN RAISED CATHOLIC SINCE I WAS A BABY! I would be sleeping up front with my parents leading worship in Oregon. Then I went to Four Square and my St. Fancis Church. I went to Calvary, and to my grandmother Church of Christ Church. Then I moved to Oregon where I went St. Tims and the Epicopal Church. I was always judged that I was going to two different churches, or I'm too young to prophesy in church, and then when I saw demons, that was unheard of so I must be possessed, and the fight goes on and on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Going to a church womens group last Saturday was interesting. I sat across the table with anti-Catholics, and I didn't fit their box so I'm possessed again and have no gift all all in their church. If they only knew my history of sexual harrassment, getting into witchcraft from sayances (spelling?) to bloody mary, and then after attacks of seeing demons, I was babtized in the Holy Spirit and through God I prayed healing for people and they were healed and I used to hear God talk to me.
NOW I'M IN REBELLION!!!!!!!!!! I'M SO TIRED OF IT ALL AND CAN'T WAIT TILL JESUS COMES BACK AND PLEASE SAVE US FROM OURSELVES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's pretty basic when you think about it. God is love and with free will there is sin and without a savior, everyone will burn in hell! :) NICE! Not that people should preach that way! Just know that above all is LOVE!
My life chapter right now is living in fight or flight! My Heart Rate has been in the high 90's for the last six months. Today it was 97, so I just have been elliminating all stressors.
PLEASE HELP ME LORD IN LIFE, SCHOOL, AND HEALTH!!!!!!!!!