Just forget the world
I just realized today is Nate's 18th birthday.
That's incredible.
I miss that boy so much. I've almost know him for a year now. But we never talk anymore.
I remember thinking about him all the time, talking to him every night, making jokes with him about stupid things, and spending four hours online just talking to him.
Today has been bad. It just got even worse now that I know I almost forgot about Nate's birthday.
How is it possible that I care so much about someone who I've never even met? Someone who I don't even talk to anymore. I don't know why thinking about him makes me so sad.
God damn.
Unfortunetly, he is the most significant boy I've ever had in my life. The brother I never had. My gay soulmate. He's the one who I could tell absolutley anything to. I went to him when Sarah and I hated eachother last summer. I made him a video, and he made me one.
I really am alone right now. Nobody can be here. They have lives, I don't.
It's just horrible when you realize that the only things keeping you alive are people who can't always be there, no matter how much they want to be.
[I feel fucking retarded for writing this. I honestly do.]
That's incredible.
I miss that boy so much. I've almost know him for a year now. But we never talk anymore.
I remember thinking about him all the time, talking to him every night, making jokes with him about stupid things, and spending four hours online just talking to him.
Today has been bad. It just got even worse now that I know I almost forgot about Nate's birthday.
How is it possible that I care so much about someone who I've never even met? Someone who I don't even talk to anymore. I don't know why thinking about him makes me so sad.
God damn.
Unfortunetly, he is the most significant boy I've ever had in my life. The brother I never had. My gay soulmate. He's the one who I could tell absolutley anything to. I went to him when Sarah and I hated eachother last summer. I made him a video, and he made me one.
I really am alone right now. Nobody can be here. They have lives, I don't.
It's just horrible when you realize that the only things keeping you alive are people who can't always be there, no matter how much they want to be.
[I feel fucking retarded for writing this. I honestly do.]