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It is honestly not fair....
I should be proud. I should be so so happy. I'm not.at all
I'll start from the beginning i suppose. Keep in mind i'm venting and anything i say in here is because i'm extremely sick/tired/angry.
I work so hard at speech. I def. don't work as hard as i possibly could but i do work really reallyhard to be good at it. At the last tournament i took 6th in humor. and i decided that i was going to work really hard and place higher this tournament.
So i added things to my humor and i took out stupid parts and i changed my bad characters..i seriously worked my ass off. Also i've been sick now for a solid month and for a few days this week i felt like i was breathing through a straw it got so bad.
So this morning started off amazing. I did sooooooo good in my first humor round. its the best i've ever preformed it..hands down. THe next round i did good too. And the round after that as well. I knew i was going to make it to semi-finals because the other people in my rounds sucked so i was really pumped.
My semi-final round was hard. There was a lot of good competition in it and I wasn't sure if i would make it to Finals..i was really really worried but i made it and i was sooo soo extremely happy.
I tried my hardest in my final round but it obviously wasn't enough because my performance wasn't as good as i wanted it to be. ANd sure enough i got 6th in humor again.
I'm soo sad right now because when you come from desert vista speech if you don't come in first you don't exist to the seniors. Once you start doing well in tournaments they start to notice you and become all buddy buddy with you. I should be so proud of getting to finals in humor but literally 5 people said,"good job" I cried the whole bus ride home and not 1 person noticed at all. I'm not trying to be a drama queen here at all i'm just disappointed in myself because taht was the last easy tournament of the season and i don't know if i'll do well at state unless i work my ass off.
I also made it to finals in my storytelling which i wrote last night. haha. That was a joke and i pretty much OWNED my finals round yet still got 5th place?? uhhh...i'm freakin pissed..
1)I want to not be sick anymore. I need a rest
2)I want to feel like i contribute to the team even if i don't get first
3)I want to work my ass off and place at State in humor
4)I want to be proud of myself for doing well this weekend but i don't feel like i did well at all
I should be proud. I should be so so happy. I'm not.at all
I'll start from the beginning i suppose. Keep in mind i'm venting and anything i say in here is because i'm extremely sick/tired/angry.
I work so hard at speech. I def. don't work as hard as i possibly could but i do work really reallyhard to be good at it. At the last tournament i took 6th in humor. and i decided that i was going to work really hard and place higher this tournament.
So i added things to my humor and i took out stupid parts and i changed my bad characters..i seriously worked my ass off. Also i've been sick now for a solid month and for a few days this week i felt like i was breathing through a straw it got so bad.
So this morning started off amazing. I did sooooooo good in my first humor round. its the best i've ever preformed it..hands down. THe next round i did good too. And the round after that as well. I knew i was going to make it to semi-finals because the other people in my rounds sucked so i was really pumped.
My semi-final round was hard. There was a lot of good competition in it and I wasn't sure if i would make it to Finals..i was really really worried but i made it and i was sooo soo extremely happy.
I tried my hardest in my final round but it obviously wasn't enough because my performance wasn't as good as i wanted it to be. ANd sure enough i got 6th in humor again.
I'm soo sad right now because when you come from desert vista speech if you don't come in first you don't exist to the seniors. Once you start doing well in tournaments they start to notice you and become all buddy buddy with you. I should be so proud of getting to finals in humor but literally 5 people said,"good job" I cried the whole bus ride home and not 1 person noticed at all. I'm not trying to be a drama queen here at all i'm just disappointed in myself because taht was the last easy tournament of the season and i don't know if i'll do well at state unless i work my ass off.
I also made it to finals in my storytelling which i wrote last night. haha. That was a joke and i pretty much OWNED my finals round yet still got 5th place?? uhhh...i'm freakin pissed..
1)I want to not be sick anymore. I need a rest
2)I want to feel like i contribute to the team even if i don't get first
3)I want to work my ass off and place at State in humor
4)I want to be proud of myself for doing well this weekend but i don't feel like i did well at all