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I'm sort of adrift today.
Not even sure what that means.
Weekdays have this way of running into eachother. That lyric comes to mind.
Today was just a day fading into another and that can't be what a life is for.
Where is the challenge? Where is my Everest?
The gym is the only thing that brings me a real sense of accomplishment and control and pride lately.
And I'm spacey today.
And I'm crashing. Not enough sleep last night. Sitting in a chair all day doesn't help with that. No one is online to talk to. No one is around. I forgot my headphones, so I have no music. My brain is taking over for the absentees and it's thinking far too much about things I don't have any answers to.
I don't want to lather, rinse, repeat Monday-Friday this week. Or the next. I want a wrench and I want some mangled works. An impossible knot to untie. Something new and hard and uncomfortable that I can really dig into and work out. Something to accomplish.
I want a reason to roll up my sleeves and use my head and my hands and mold some part of my life.
Not even sure what that means.
Weekdays have this way of running into eachother. That lyric comes to mind.
Today was just a day fading into another and that can't be what a life is for.
Where is the challenge? Where is my Everest?
The gym is the only thing that brings me a real sense of accomplishment and control and pride lately.
And I'm spacey today.
And I'm crashing. Not enough sleep last night. Sitting in a chair all day doesn't help with that. No one is online to talk to. No one is around. I forgot my headphones, so I have no music. My brain is taking over for the absentees and it's thinking far too much about things I don't have any answers to.
I don't want to lather, rinse, repeat Monday-Friday this week. Or the next. I want a wrench and I want some mangled works. An impossible knot to untie. Something new and hard and uncomfortable that I can really dig into and work out. Something to accomplish.
I want a reason to roll up my sleeves and use my head and my hands and mold some part of my life.