Well a new address and a new outlook this weekend!
As I unlocked my office door this morning, I seriously had to stop and think if I was here on Friday, because it’s felt like forever since I was here. Boy does if feel like I lived half a life over the weekend!
Friday was spent doing some last moment things at the house and having dinner with Andrew; I can barely even remember the day.
Saturday I moved some things on my own, while Andrew ran then finished laundry packed my car for Sunday, and went out with a friend that evening. I had hoped that Andrew and I could spend Saturday night together seeing how it was my last night there, but that didn’t happen… perhaps better I suppose, but I was still a bit bummed.
So Sunday came…and woke up at 6:30, went out to breakfast, and was all moved in by 11:45am, and Andrew left. As we said our goodbyes I did cry….oh gosh did I hate that I cried, but I think also it was for leaving Andrew and knowing that I wasn’t going to see him everyday or even speak to him everyday, but also for the multitude of changes that have occurred in my life lately. Especially those in the past couple of weeks; everyday it seemed as though something changed, and that was just about the final push of it all, certainly changing your address is among the bigger of changes! I am exited for it, and looking forward to living on my own, and experiencing things on my own. I do want this… but it also isn’t without missing that companionship one obtains with a roommate; especially when it’s a close friend. But this is what’s needed for my soul. I’ve been quite off balanced for a while now, and I can feel things aren’t settled in the fashion I would like for them to be, so this is my season of looking at things and reworking things that are not working out, and embracing those things that are. Life is funny that way sometimes.
I have not a clue really what is going to happen over the next few months… heck 3 months ago not a clue I would be in this position, and now here I am. My boss replied back to me about being considered for the promotion, she said we’ll talk when she gets back next month; which is a positive I think; and I’m excited for that. David’s last day is Friday, so make the most of this week. The nannying will officially begin tonight, as I spend time with them over the week (and all day on Saturday or Sunday) to get accustomed to the little ones schedule. And more unpacking and getting settled.
For now though; I think I am going to take a lot of this time to myself, I did text the guy last night, and it went a bit of back and forth until I feel asleep. He doesn’t seem to be one who is forward, so if he does initiate a 3rd date; I’ll accept, but I’m going to be honest and say I only want a friendship right now. If he can handle that, fantastic, if not, well I’m certainly no stranger to males lately not being able to handle a friendship if they can’t get me into bed… and that will be that. For other friends, I am going to take a step back from all of them, and see where it goes. I admit I’m a planner, and most of the time it’s me initiating contact, but for a bit at least I’m going to step back and see what happens. I am entering quite a busy season, and I want to focus on myself, and my career, and the apt, and the little one, and also my new responsibilities at the Grove…. I’m honestly excited for this!
This week should be fun. Work a lot during the day, start getting used to Skye and her schedule, I may, just may try climbing tonight (we’ll see….) and finish unpacking and decorating! I made a pack that I wouldn’t begin decorating until everything was unpacked… The release party for our 5th edition that I planned is on Thursday, and I’m looking forward to that; and who knows what else… unpacking is my main focus right now….
Friday was spent doing some last moment things at the house and having dinner with Andrew; I can barely even remember the day.
Saturday I moved some things on my own, while Andrew ran then finished laundry packed my car for Sunday, and went out with a friend that evening. I had hoped that Andrew and I could spend Saturday night together seeing how it was my last night there, but that didn’t happen… perhaps better I suppose, but I was still a bit bummed.
So Sunday came…and woke up at 6:30, went out to breakfast, and was all moved in by 11:45am, and Andrew left. As we said our goodbyes I did cry….oh gosh did I hate that I cried, but I think also it was for leaving Andrew and knowing that I wasn’t going to see him everyday or even speak to him everyday, but also for the multitude of changes that have occurred in my life lately. Especially those in the past couple of weeks; everyday it seemed as though something changed, and that was just about the final push of it all, certainly changing your address is among the bigger of changes! I am exited for it, and looking forward to living on my own, and experiencing things on my own. I do want this… but it also isn’t without missing that companionship one obtains with a roommate; especially when it’s a close friend. But this is what’s needed for my soul. I’ve been quite off balanced for a while now, and I can feel things aren’t settled in the fashion I would like for them to be, so this is my season of looking at things and reworking things that are not working out, and embracing those things that are. Life is funny that way sometimes.
I have not a clue really what is going to happen over the next few months… heck 3 months ago not a clue I would be in this position, and now here I am. My boss replied back to me about being considered for the promotion, she said we’ll talk when she gets back next month; which is a positive I think; and I’m excited for that. David’s last day is Friday, so make the most of this week. The nannying will officially begin tonight, as I spend time with them over the week (and all day on Saturday or Sunday) to get accustomed to the little ones schedule. And more unpacking and getting settled.
For now though; I think I am going to take a lot of this time to myself, I did text the guy last night, and it went a bit of back and forth until I feel asleep. He doesn’t seem to be one who is forward, so if he does initiate a 3rd date; I’ll accept, but I’m going to be honest and say I only want a friendship right now. If he can handle that, fantastic, if not, well I’m certainly no stranger to males lately not being able to handle a friendship if they can’t get me into bed… and that will be that. For other friends, I am going to take a step back from all of them, and see where it goes. I admit I’m a planner, and most of the time it’s me initiating contact, but for a bit at least I’m going to step back and see what happens. I am entering quite a busy season, and I want to focus on myself, and my career, and the apt, and the little one, and also my new responsibilities at the Grove…. I’m honestly excited for this!
This week should be fun. Work a lot during the day, start getting used to Skye and her schedule, I may, just may try climbing tonight (we’ll see….) and finish unpacking and decorating! I made a pack that I wouldn’t begin decorating until everything was unpacked… The release party for our 5th edition that I planned is on Thursday, and I’m looking forward to that; and who knows what else… unpacking is my main focus right now….